ONE
Wasted My Time
I could have been at a lunch with my girls, sipping cocktails and eating steak that cost more than this sad hotel room. Instead, I was flat on my back beneath a man who was struggling harder than my Wi-Fi when I visited Fiji. Pedro squinted, brows high as if sheer focus might fix anything. His dick was clearly broken.
It wasn’t me!
Staring at the ceiling, I wondered if the water damage above us was shaped like Spain or if it was only my patience cracking in real time. Fed up, I rolled my eyes and shoved him off me.
I had better things to do.
“Listen, man, I don’t have all day. You’ve had more than enough time to impress me. Get your ass some Viagra or something.”
“Wait, just give me a few more minutes,” he begged.
“Minutes?” I asked, unsure I’d heard him right. “Time is money. Do you know how much a minute is worth?”
Pedro sat in bed with a confused expression. Of course, he didn’t.
As I put my arm through my shirt, I explained, “Do you know what the average person in my field makes? One thousand two hundred one dollars and ninety-two cents an hour. Instead of earning that, I’ve wasted my time with you, only to be sent away without what you promised.”
Money down the fucking drain.
“And now you want another damn minute? I could earn twenty dollars and three fucking cents in that time, but you expect me to stay here letting it pass with you? I don’t have another damn one to waste. Your limp dick isn’t worth my time,” I said, then reached for my pants.
Pedro’s cock must have loved a good scolding because suddenly that thick, once-useless bulge was hard and tempting. I bit my lip and grinned. It was clearly ready for action. Once I ran the numbers again, I had to admit I could afford it.
Shit, I was a damn heiress at the end of the day. Fuck it!
Now that he was finally hard enough to be of some use, I slid down on his cock, pressed my palms flat against his chest to keep Pedro exactly where I wanted, and began to fuck the living daylights out of him.
“Damn,” he said in a strangled voice, while I sought an orgasm without apology or theatrics. I wanted to come right now, and this thick dick owed me a good ride. Pedro tried to caress me as I drove up and down, but I grabbed his wrists, pinned them to the mattress, and took what I wanted. This shouldn’t have come as a surprise. I was always in charge in every aspect of my life. Why did I think I could lie here and depend on a man? With Pedro panting and praising me underneath, I set the rhythm and pace. If anyone was going to make the lunch worth remembering, it was never going to be a man.
As soon as we both came, I was back on my feet. “You made up for wasting part of my lunch break. I might let you have some more pussy another time.”
In record time, I scrambled to get dressed, snatching my underwear from the ground and yanking it and my pants on. While I tugged my blouse over my head, I scanned the room for my shoes and spotted them next to my purse and phone.
I figured a broke part-time server-slash-wannabe author hadn’t eaten, so out of pity I tossed him a few bucks. When I dropped it on the bed near him, Pedro’s face tightened with a painful expression that left me confused. “What?”
“You act like I’m a sex worker.”
“Trust me, with your little problem, you couldn’t make that a full-time occupation either.”
Clearly offended, he asked, “What does that mean?”
“Forget it. I’ve wasted enough time,” I said, then headed toward the hotel door. “Eat or don’t, makes no difference to me.”
I refused to give him another second.
With that, I slammed the door and hurried through the hall to the elevator. When I arrived at the lobby, I opened my phone, then the Amoré Nights dating app. I found Pedro’s profile and blocked him. Something about the way he spoke earlier didn’t sit right with me. There he was, broke and living with six roommates, with an unreliable dick, no matter how thick it was, and yet he acted wounded when I was charitable enough to help him get a meal. I didn’t fuck stupid men. In fact, even if it was just about sex, I wasn’t the Red Cross. I needed my developers to update the app so women could filter for men in their preferred price range. Mine had to be above six figures.
Yes, that was what I planned to do once I reached the office, and I needed to get there quickly.
Once I walked out a hotel revolving door, the wind slapped my face, bringing me back into focus. Pedro was done, blocked, forgotten. I had bigger things to do, like launch an empire.
My jaw tightened as snowflakes landed on my black hair. They dusted my designer suede coat, and I glared up at the sky. This wasn’t in the forecast. Not according to that damn weatherman, who I’d watched this morning before taking out my curling iron. This should have come as no surprise to me.
He was a man, after all.
Why the hell I expected him to be dependable or know anything about the topic that fell from his lips was beyond me. I took a few steps through the slush, and my six-inch heels wobbled in protest. Not willing to risk a fall, I lifted my hand and waved, jumping into the first taxi that stopped. I sat in the back of the car as it crawled through the chaos of New York traffic, and the city vibrated with noise and movement. Inside the warm car, I took a deep breath and marveled at how far Amoré Nights had come.
When I originally announced I planned to create a dating app, everyone asked why. The market was saturated, and nobody truly found love on them. That was mostly because the majority of men lied on the apps. However, instead of stating the obvious, I pretended love wasn’t a myth used to manipulate women and blamed low lifetime matches from dating apps on what my competitors lacked.
Amoré Nights offered two key things the other apps didn’t: background checks and reviews from others who had dated their potential soulmate. No longer did you have to take a man’s word before any woman placed her delicate heart in his care.
TWO
I Hoped You Were Dead
Just as the taxi stopped in traffic, my phone rang. Only my bored mom would think I was free to chat in the middle of the day. I took a deep breath and lifted the phone to my ear.
“What is it now, Madre?”
“Oh. Such manners. This is how you speak to your own mother? When I was a child, we had respect.”
Annoyed that my cab might not move anytime soon, I spoke firmly. “If you called for no reason, I’m hanging up.”
“No. Wait. Your father wants to know what you’re doing in America these days.”
Why she sounded uncertain, I wasn’t sure. I’d already told them about launching the dating app. Of course, my parents gave me their typical response: unimpressed.
“The app will officially launch next month.”
“Oh right. Your sex app,” she said, but then her voice softened. “I just…don’t understand.”
Frustrated, I took two deep breaths. “How adults choose to use it is their business, but I’m offering them a chance at real love.”
Even I heard myself repeating an Amoré Nights advertisement. Selling love like it wasn’t a scam.
“You? Love? Go ahead and tell me another lie.”
After the quickie during lunch, I was semi-relaxed, but now, thanks to Mother, all of that was gone. This was why I never called, as she often pointed out. Sure, no one saw me ending up selling love, not after the train wreck of a breakup I had in college.
“Alexandra, are you still there?”
Her earlier words replayed in my mind, and then it clicked. I had used the app for exactly what Madre said it was meant for—to get sex.
“What is it?” I asked, annoyed that she hit the nail on the head.
“Anything new happening in your life?”
In the back of a taxi wasn’t the place I wanted to have this conversation. “I’m at the office. I’ll call you back later when I’m free.”
“Wait.”
I didn’t bother listening. If something important had happened, she would’ve told me right away. By now, hanging up on my mother felt as routine as brushing my teeth. Still, it spoiled the decent mood I was in just minutes ago.
After exiting the car, I handed the driver some cash.
Around me, sirens wailed, joining the constant honking of cars and the murmur of voices. The noise did not bother me anymore; I was a real New Yorker now, so I walked into the high-rise where my company, Amoré Nights, rented office space. The day wasn’t turning out at all how I planned. From Pedro’s faulty equipment to my mother, if it wasn’t for the fact my app was ready to go live after months of testing, I might still be wearing a sour expression. Screw that. I refused to let anyone determine the sort of day I’d be having. I was the only one responsible for my mood.
Determined, I lifted my chin and clicked my heels against the polished floor, pretending the sound they made was a battle drum. I could handle anything that came my way. After going through security, I made my way to the elevator and stabbed the button. I had to wait a short while for the damn thing to arrive, so I used the time to return a few messages. Once inside, I tapped the twenty-third floor, and as soon as the elevator closed, a familiar cologne filled the space. I froze. No fucking way, it couldn’t be him. As the metal box began its climb, I tried to think rationally. The brand might’ve been used by him, but it wasn’t made only for lying, cheating bastards. With my head still straight ahead toward the buttons in front of me, I took a breath and returned my gaze to the phone screen.
“Hi, Alex.”
My skin crawled the second I heard that voice. It was too familiar, and I didn’t waste a second hoping it wasn’t him. That low and smooth, mostly smug tone belonged to no one else. Slowly, I turned, every muscle tight, not eager to see this man. Yet, there he was, exactly how I remembered.
Fuck it, I gave up. My day was officially down the toilet. Forget trying to shape it into anything decent. If this pig was here, the battle was already lost. “What the fuck are you doing here?”
My ex-boyfriend, a man whose name I vowed would never cross my lips again, didn’t flinch at my words. Why would he? I’d called him every name under the sun since he cheated on me with my college roommate.
“I’m here for business,” he said.
I hated him, but he still looked like a young Andy García with dark eyes, a sharp jaw, and that stupid effortless charm wrapped in a perfect business suit. Even I could not lie to myself about that face.
Hundreds of companies rented space here. Pure coincidence, I told myself. While I didn’t appreciate my luck at running into him, this unwelcome encounter would end soon. The elevator was nearly at my floor.
“You know what, forget I asked. It’s not my concern,” I snapped, then spun back around and stared at the door, eagerly awaiting my floor.
“Your blouse is inside out.”
Slowly, I lowered my eyes to find my shirt was indeed on incorrectly. Fuck. He was the sort of ex you wanted to run into, if it had to happen, looking your best—not with your buttons or tag in the wrong place. Shrugging, I took a deep breath and turned. “Well, your zipper’s down. I didn’t bother pointing it out.”
We looked at each other for a bit, and he said smugly, “No, it’s not.”
I didn’t crack a smile. Instead, I looked from his face to his crotch, and as expected, he lowered his gaze to double-check.
“Don’t worry about things that don’t concern you.”
A low amused chuckle bounced off the elevator walls. His laughter hit hard, and I tightened both fists at my sides. One more second of that smug sound was almost too much to bear. One year ago, he turned me into a joke, and now was enjoying another chuckle at my expense.
How damn long was this elevator going to take? The twenty-third floor never felt this far from the lobby before.
“Seems you had an enjoyable lunch.”
Seconds ago, I’d silently made a vow to go back to pretending this cheating piece of shit didn’t exist and never exchange another word with him. However, at that moment I couldn’t resist delivering one last blow. Spinning back around, I locked eyes with my ex, licked my lips slowly, then made a show of wiping the corners of my mouth.
“He was delicious.”
Bruno’s nose wrinkled, and his lip curled like he smelled something horrible.
I would have stayed there, mocking him with a smile he would never forget, if the elevator doors had not opened at my floor. I stepped out, my heels clicking as I enjoyed the satisfaction of getting the last word. Then I noticed something strange. The familiar scent trailed after me. Confused, I paused, turned, and found Bruno.
“What the hell is this? Why are you on my floor? Where are you going?”
“Amoré Nights.”
I Wish I Never Met You
For a second I thought I’d misheard. Amoré Nights? My company? What the hell did he want with my company? As I stood there frozen, he walked around me casually, as if he didn’t owe me a single explanation. I watched him move ahead, my jaw dropping as he opened the door with my company logo on it. Anger surged through me when the door shut in my face, leaving me on the outside looking in.
Regaining composure, I rushed inside just in time to hear an explanation.
“Hello. I’m the operations specialist sent by Greenslate. I’ll be needing an office to oversee the launch of Amoré Nights.”
Shit! That wasn’t just a title, he would report to the people holding the purse strings.
There was a pit in my stomach. My receptionist leaned to her right to make eye contact with me. “Ms. Ortega?”
At a loss for words, I looked from her to him and back again. Greenslate gave me the largest amount of funding to start the business. Since only a foolish businesswoman would use her personal funds, I brought in investors. Now, they seemed to want to babysit me at my own company, and of all the damn employees, they sent that fucking man.
“Ms. Ortega?”
Remembering Tina was waiting, I gave a professional nod. “Please get the Greenslate employee settled.”
“Yes, Miss,” she said, then stood and extended a hand to my annoying ex. “What did you say your name was, sir?”
“Bruno Gasol.”
They kept talking while I marched down the hallway, heels loud as gunshots and fingers tight at my side. If I didn’t get into my office quickly, I’d explode in front of everyone.
Once inside, I looked for something to throw.
“Did you have a bad lunch?” Eliana, my secretary, asked as she entered.
Dragging off my coat, I glared at her and fired off my own questions. “Did Greenslate send any emails or calls asking for permission to plant an employee here?”
Her confused expression was my answer.
“What happened? What employee?”
Ignoring her, I paced the length of my office, each turn fueled by the kind of fury that begged for a target.
“This is exactly why my father doesn’t believe in investors. He likens them to partners, and too many of them meant you had less control.”
Eliana shook her head. “Alex, breathe. I’m getting dizzy just watching you.”
“Greenslate thinks I’m not capable of launching Amoré Nights, so they sent a babysitter.”
“Can they do that?”
“It’s a gray area. They have rights as investors, and sending someone to assist and oversee is definitely within their rights,” I explained, still pacing the room. “Why does it have to be him, though?”
“Who?” Eliana asked, twisting the cap off a bottle of water and holding it out to me. I grabbed it and drank some, but it burned going down my throat. All of this shit stung. “If they didn’t believe I could run the damn business properly, why the hell did Greenslate invest?”
Eliana frowned. “Wait, wait. Why jump to that conclusion? You gave me the impression seconds ago it was fairly normal.”
“Well. It is, but…”
“But what?”
Staring at her, I ran my hand through my hair. “They fucking sent my ex-boyfriend. The one man I never wanted to see again.”
My throat felt dry. Just seeing his face brought back a memory I thought I’d never be forced to remember.
“Shit,” Eliana blurted out.
Exactly. A man I’d vowed never to see again was now a few doors down the hall in my company, getting himself settled.
“Alex, calm down.”
This was calm. Pacing around the room, eyes wide, hands shaking. That was calm. If not, I’d be down the hall creating a scene that would embarrass me and the company, whose reputation I didn’t want to ruin. My heels scraped against the floor as I did another lap around the room, worked up and furious to the point that I could not sit or think straight.
“Operations specialist. He will dig into everything, not only operations. Give him time, soon he’ll be in finance and product readiness.”
Eliana placed her arms on my shoulders and steered me to my desk. When she gently lowered me into my seat, I leaned back.
“We launch next month. You’ve worked tirelessly on this company. Your ex-boyfriend can’t do anything to stop Amoré Nights.”
Hearing her call Bruno my anything made my jaw tighten. However, she was fucking right. No damn way would I let him take another thing away from me. Greenslate had no legal right to their money back.
“The meeting will start in ten minutes,” Eliana reminded me in a voice that sounded unsure I’d still attend.
I stood behind the desk, smoothing the wrinkles from my pants with shaky hands. My jaw was set, and the choice was already made. Nothing was going to stop me today.
“Are these the files? Is the room set up?”
Eliana carried a strange look. “Yes.”
“Fine. Alert the Greenslate spy and let’s go.”
I walked around the desk toward my office door, head held high, shoulders back, ready to face it all. Bruno Gasol wasn’t about to shake me. I’d already survived him. I was unbreakable now. As I reached for the doorknob, my secretary called out, “Alex.”
Ugh, I’d given myself such a good pep talk. I was in the zone and spun around, annoyed. “What? Let’s go.”
“Maybe you should fix your shirt first.”
A few minutes later, my Chanel blouse was properly buttoned and right-side out. I left the office, headed down the hall, and walked through the door Eliana held open. I ignored Bruno seated at the far end of the table.
“We don’t have much time left, and as you can expect, we cannot afford to drop the ball now,” I said while lowering myself into the chair.
Eliana gestured with her head in Bruno’s direction, and I took a deep breath, rolled my eyes, and with a face that looked like I smelled the foulest odor, explained his presence. “Greenslate has sent us some assistance. Mr. Gasol will be with us for a while.”
“How long?” one employee asked, and I’d wondered the same thing during my walk from the office.
Instead of wasting time guessing, I looked at him. “Mr. Gasol, how long will you be a stain in our lives?”
My words weren’t missed. A few people looked shocked, but not Bruno.
He simply smiled. “I’m only here to help. Promise not to get in anyone’s way. Greenslate just wants to ensure the launch is profitable for all.”
“Promise?” Ha. I remembered when I was foolish enough to accept promises from this man. Once I realized the words had slipped out, I looked for a way to fix it, but there was no need.
“Well, help is never a bad thing,” said James, a lead data engineer who was on thin ice.
“Maybe Mr. Gasol can help you personally. God knows you burn enough of my time already,” I spat, and the room got quiet. This man was someone I’d planned to fire for weeks. Actually, if I wasn’t riding Pedro earlier, he would have been asked to leave the company already, but I was delayed.
Being a perfectionist meant James and his mistakes did not fit with my vision for the company, especially with the Greenslate spy watching.
“Sorry, I shouldn’t have spoken,” he mumbled.
Eager to get the meeting back on track, I spoke to IT. “Change the app so that if a woman doesn’t wish to fall in love with a man who has nothing but two nickels to rub together, she has the option to avoid meeting him.”
“How can we be certain the men aren’t lying about their work or earnings?” one employee asked.
A second added, “Should we ask for W-2s or pay stubs as proof of employment?”
“If you make it harder for men to join, how’s the app supposed to succeed? I’m not trying to cause trouble, it’s just math,” Bruno said. His voice made my skin crawl.
“So, you’re saying a woman should take whatever comes along? The eight-figure executive has no right to have standards and ask for a top earner? Only if we let a man lie to her will he join Amoré Nights?”
The moment the last word left my mouth, I heard the sharp edge of bitterness laced through it. Around me, various faces looked on, some surprised, others tense, all far too silent.
“I agree with Alex,” Shelia in marketing said.
Bruno and I stared at each other across the table, but he spoke just the same. “Do you?”
“Yes. OK, we all want to date billionaires, but seriously, not many of us do. Women often date based on feelings and emotions despite their preferences. Forcing a broke man to be honest won’t ruin all his chances. If a man believes lying is the way to start a relationship, he’s not the kind we want on Amoré Nights,” she said with deliberate clarity.
Another female employee spoke up. “Shelia’s right. That’s what sets our dating app apart from the competition.”
I shot him a glare sharp enough to cut glass before I opened my mouth to speak. “You see, Mr. Gasol, I went out of my way to create a space to exclude lying men who wished to waste a woman’s time. Amoré Nights is my baby, and if we lose a few deceitful men, sparing just one woman tears, I have no problem with it.”
He looked unmoved. “That’s a nice sentiment. Luckily for you, most dating apps have more men than women. You can afford to scare away a few and still be successful.”
His words prickled my skin. “Only Greenslate seems to have any doubt Amoré Nights will be successful.”
“Really? Other than you and maybe your girlfriends, what makes you so certain of its success?”
Taking his question as a personal insult, I tightened my stare but kept my emotions at bay. “The numbers haven’t been reported to Greenslate yet, but my team have already analyzed them from the launch in Spain months ago. The numbers are fine.”
“Spain?”
“Yes. Spain. Maybe you’ve heard of it. It’s a beautiful country. There are people there, and some of them want to find love,” I spat.
Bruno smirked. “As you know, my family is also from there, Alex.”
The use of my nickname made my whole body tighten now.
“So, Amoré Nights will be an international app. Users can even look for love abroad?” Bruno asked.
“Yes. Some might argue all the men in their home country are trash. I’ve at least given them an app to check if it’s just their location or if all the men in the world are horrible creatures.”
The conference room was full, but the only thing I saw was Bruno, who sat too comfortably in his seat for my liking. Eyes locked with mine, tossing back my words like they needed his approval. I shot back without flinching, our exchange sharp and fast. The tension was thick enough to cut, our voices low but loaded, and I could feel the eyes around the table shifting, the silence growing as everyone tuned in. They all knew. They had to know. This wasn’t a normal business meeting or discussion. Bruno and I clearly had history. We’d once been deeply in love, then the whole thing burned away until only the bare bones were left. And even though I should remember my professional reputation, I didn’t back down. Not with him. Not now.
Go Back Where You Came From
After going back and forth with Bruno in the meeting, we all went to our neutral corners for rest and recovery. I felt like a fighter between rounds, waiting for the bell to return to the center of the ring.
Inside my office, Eliana stared at me, confused.
“What?” I yelled, tired of her eyes.
“Damn, you two must have a lot of history.”
That was an understatement. “It’s a long story.”
“What are the chances he’s the one Greenslate assigned to supervise your launch?”
She didn’t really need an answer, so I stood and began to pace. “It’s just my luck. What should be one of the happiest times of my life is soured by Bruno Gasol.”
Eliana glanced at the office phone. “If you can’t handle it…maybe we call and request a replacement.”
My eyes flew open. I was trying to build a reputation in the business world, a space that wasn’t fair to women to begin with, and now I was supposed to let word get out I couldn’t work with a man because we once fucked? Bruno strutted in like he could be professional, so damnit, I could too.
“Eliana, if he can do it, so can I. Shit, I’m not the one who should be uncomfortable.”
Her voice softened. “Mind if I ask what happened between you and Mr. Gasol?”
I patted her shoulder. “After Amoré Nights is launched and the blizzard named Bruno leaves our orbit, I’ll gladly share. But for now, I have to rush home. I’m having dinner with the girls.”
Eliana’s eyes widened. “Oh, it’s tonight.”
“Yes. The weekly Aston Lane College bitches meeting is tonight, and it’s my time to host.”
As I headed toward the door, my secretary chuckled. “Why you four would call yourselves bitches I will never understand.”
“We heard it so much, we just decided to embrace it.”
A short while later, I entered my luxury New York condo. As the door shut behind me, I removed my shoes and took a deep breath, happy to be home. Today was one for the record books. I walked farther into the condo. The windows and marble floor sparkled, which told me Linda, my cleaner, had been here today. It lifted my mood to walk into a clean space. I inhaled and recognized a delicious smell. Dominic, my personal chef, was clearly already at work. Following the rosemary and garlic, I approached the open-concept kitchen and spotted him moving with his usual grace. After a friendly chat, I walked toward the living room, passing my comfy gray sofa that faced the fireplace. One touch on the remote lit the flames and gave the room a bit of ambiance. Everything looked beautiful. From where I stood, the dining table was set with expensive silverware, white orchids, and glowing candles. When you paid good money, you got a great team.
After a quick glance at my watch, I rushed to rinse the day from my body and hair. The girls would be here soon, and this was the only part of the day I was certain would go well. Forty-five minutes later, I exited the bedroom. After the embarrassing mistake earlier, I stopped in the hallway in front of a mirror to make sure my clothes weren’t inside out.
All those years spent learning to dress myself, and today I forget the skill.
I tugged at the sleeve of a newly purchased cashmere sweater, wondering if the soft blue was the right color for my olive-toned skin. Since it was too late to second-guess the choice, I pushed the thought aside and pulled my thick damp curls into a bun. As usual, I kept my jewelry simple because I had no desire to be like my madre. Only my watch and diamond studs that caught the light when I moved.
Downstairs, I heard the door shut. Dominic must have finished and let himself out. At least one man in my life knew how to make himself useful.
Minutes later the doorbell rang, and I walked with my wine glass in hand. Using my free hand, I opened the door. “What’s up, bitches?”
Mei walked in first. This Chinese beauty, with her sharp cheekbones and almond eyes, snatched my glass and lifted it to her mouth. “Thanks.”
My mouth fell open. She had no idea what kind of day I’d had but went straight for the one thing holding me together. Mei patted my shoulder in a playful way and stepped past me. As always, my full-time medical student and part-time model friend walked with easy confidence while taking the wine glass farther from me.
“Really? You’re doing door service but didn’t bring me one?”
Turning my head from one to the other, I complained, “That bitch stole my drink.”
Olivia greeted me with a wide, warm smile that turned into a soft chuckle as she stepped past me, her long legs and blonde hair bouncing behind her. She slipped out of heels I had never spotted in a store and wore a dress I fully intended to get the details on before the night ended. As she made her way further into my home, Mei offered her glass. That figured. Olivia was an heiress too, but unlike me, not many told her no.
“I’ll get my own,” she said as I joined them.
Next to me, Olivia filled a wine glass so high I wondered why she even bothered moving it from the bottle.
Mei seemed to read my mind. “You might as well have just lifted the bottle to your head.”
We laughed, like we were back in the college dorms, not professional women with corporate jobs and mortgages.
“Getting drunk is one thing. I’m still going to do it with class,” Olivia said.
“Says the woman who vomited in the taxi last week,” I said.
We shared another laugh, then the doorbell rang. I hurried to answer it. “Oh, good, Demetria is here. We can finally get this started. You guys wouldn’t believe the day I had.”
“Let me guess, fucked a man over breakfast, another for lunch, and one probably lined up for after we leave,” Mei mocked.
Damn, they really knew me well.
Opening the door, I smiled. “You’re late.”
“The law firm had a meeting. Sorry.”
We embraced, and in a matter of seconds, Demetria, who I was the closest to of all the girls, picked up on something. “Are you OK?”
After she’d removed her shoes and headed toward Mei, who held a glass of wine out to her, I shared, “Bruno is back.”
All three of them just stared at me, frozen. Olivia had her mouth slightly open like she forgot to close it, Mei blinked hard as if trying to process what she’d just heard, and Demetria tilted her head, eyebrows raised high, clearly questioning if I’d spoken correctly.
“Let’s eat,” I said, walking past them all toward the table.
“Fuck food. Where did you see that piece of shit?” Olivia asked.
Only when I reached the table and lowered my glass did I answer. “At Amoré Nights.”
“What? Why was he there?” Mei asked.
It made no sense to stand talking while the food got cold, so I pulled my seat out, sat, and everyone followed. Demetria sat beside me, her long curly black hair falling over one shoulder, and she swallowed her wine like a marathon runner on the finish line.
“Spill it.”
As ordered, I told my friends about the day I’d had.
“Here, take your wine back,” Mei said, even though I’d already poured another glass.
Olivia stabbed her fork into her salad as she spoke. “Of all the damn employees at Greenslate, it just had to be him.”
“That’s exactly what I said,” I answered and felt Demetria’s eyes on me.
Mei chewed, and soon after swallowing, she spoke. “Men suck, we know that, but none more than Bruno. Why didn’t he ask to be reassigned? Why come to your company and disturb your peace?”
“Maybe he still wants you back,” Demetria said, and we all stared at her. She might be my closest friend, but we hardly saw eye to eye on men.
“Are you fucking serious?” Olivia spat.
“What? I still believe in love, even if it’s trendy not to,” Demetria said.
I sighed.
Mei shook her head. “How? Why?”
“The rest of us have been burned too many times, and smarter now, survivors of lying sacks of shit,” I said.
Olivia, who had quit our men are only good for one thing club after getting engaged to Luke Forrester, the only man actually worth shit in this world, kept noticeably quiet.
However, Mei and I had active membership cards, but not Demetria, who was still in search of a special man.
“I just do,” Demetria said flatly.
She cried the same as us, maybe even worse, but naively thought there was another decent man out there—all she had to do was keep searching.
“He had her. Remember, the cheating bastard wasn’t satisfied.”
Thankfully, Olivia spoke. I didn’t have the energy. Demetria had encouraged me to forgive Bruno all along.
“Nope, we aren’t doing this. Let’s go back to the earlier rule,” Mei suggested.
“We don’t talk about Bruno,” Olivia sang.
I chuckled but looked at Demetria, who studied me intently. “Once Amoré Nights is launched, Bruno will be out of my life. Period.”
“Are you sure deep down that’s what you really want?” Demetria pushed.
Squinting, I just stared. She’d known me long enough not to need an answer.
“Wait, you really think Alex would take him back?” Olivia asked, with a concerned look.
Demetria spoke quickly. “I support her in whatever she chooses. I just don’t want her to feel she can’t take him back if that’s what…”
“If any of you see me back with Bruno, please take me to the nearest treatment facility and have me committed. I’d have to be out of my fucking mind.”
Laughter erupted between us the second I finished speaking, the kind that made Olivia clutch her sides and Mei wipe tears from her eyes. I leaned back with a smirk, proud of myself. I wouldn’t let an ex-boyfriend throw me off balance.
As always, a night with the ladies was perfect. When it ended, I was all smiles and in a great mood. An hour later, the doorbell rang again. I lowered my wine glass and walked barefoot over to the door.
I flung it open, my breath uneven. My huge breasts were displayed nicely by the hallway light, both nipples were already hard, my pussy was wet, and the pooling between my thighs grew as Dominic’s gaze roamed without shame, stopping on the curve of my hips. My personal chef looked hungry, and I wasn’t about to send him away starving.
“You made dinner. The least I can do is offer dessert.”
Played Me & Took Advantage
The wind cut through Madison Avenue like a knife, but I stood my ground. I wouldn’t get shoved around by it or anyone. I pushed through the revolving doors and walked to the elevator after saying a little mantra. “You can do it.”
No sooner had I said those words, I spotted Bruno ahead of me, and my internal body temperature grew. I needed no damn artificial heat; anger and annoyance had warmed me up. Seriously, I’d have to do this until we fucking launch? Endure a series of unpleasant days at my own company because of this man of all people. I didn’t want my rage to be noticeable, so I entered the elevator door he held open and pressed the button.
“Good morning.”
Unable to help it, I rolled my eyes. “I made myself perfectly clear long ago, a good morning for me is one where I wake up and learn you’re dead.”
Seconds passed as we stood in stiff silence while the elevator moved, the motor’s noise louder than either of us.
“Alex, you know I’m sorry. I’ve done everything possible to make it up to you.”
Just then the elevator doors opened, and a few people stepped inside. Thank goodness he stopped his sob story.
We continued to climb higher until finally we arrived at the Amoré Nights floor.
When we exited, I told him, “This is my place of business. I don’t want to hear anything from your mouth that is not about the company. You are not going to ruin something important to me.”
Bruno looked wounded; that man had really perfected the look. “Why would I do that? Greenslate wouldn’t have even invested if it wasn’t for me.”
His eyes widened when the words left his mouth, and Bruno glanced away. That half second told me everything, and a series of ideas formed in my mind.
“What?”
“Forget it.”
I grabbed his arm and pulled him into my office. The door slammed behind us. “What the fuck is that supposed to mean? Speak clearly.”
“Alex, calm down,” he said, holding up a hand.
“No. I didn’t even know you worked at Greenslate until recently. I haven’t said your name in a year, and that rule includes my friends. So you being the reason they invested in my business makes no fucking sense.”
Bruno spoke quickly. “Greenslate is the big league. They don’t normally invest in small start-ups, so I talked my boss into it.”
I clenched my jaw. “Fuck! I don’t want to owe you anything.”
“You don’t. I’m the one who owed you, so I wanted to help.”
Frustrated, I lowered myself into my chair. Bruno continued explaining, but I barely registered the sounds. Other than the one in my mind, which was now filled with many thoughts.
What the hell was this man up to? What was his angle?
Bruno lowered one of the coffee cups he’d been carrying since I spotted him downstairs onto my desk, and I blinked as I looked at him.
“Espresso and sweetened condensed milk.”
Annoyed that this man who’d wrecked my life thought remembering how I took my coffee, or getting my dream company funded, would make up for anything, I slapped the cup off my desk. The hot liquid splashed as it fell, and some droplets splattered onto Bruno’s pants.
“If I want coffee, I can get it myself. I also have a damn secretary. Greenslate didn’t send you over here to fucking sniff around me.”
“Alex.”
“Ms. Ortega. That’s what you should refer to me as, Mr. Gasol. We have no relationship whatsoever. You might have forced yourself into my space, but you need to remember your place.”
Just then, a familiar ringtone sliced through the tension. I would have ignored it if he had not been right there, but I was more than ready for the conversation to end, so I grabbed the phone.
“Hello.” I smiled when I recognized the voice. “Oh hi, handsome.”
Bruno still stood in front of me. For fucking what? Couldn’t he take a hint? Fine!
“Dominic, last night was just what I needed. Your cock was amazing. Is there any area you aren’t capable in? Kitchen or bedroom, there seems to be no space where you do not shine.”
I leaned back in my chair, phone pressed to my ear, laughing softly at something Dominic said, and out of the corner of my eye, I caught the way Bruno’s expression darkened. His jaw tightened, eyes narrowing, carrying a flicker of jealousy he couldn’t hide.
“Why don’t you swing by around lunchtime. I have a desk here we can clear so we can have a sweet time.”
Shocked, I opened my eyes when the man I was trying to get rid of lowered himself into the chair in front of me.
He was staying. What the hell!
“OK. Sure. I’ll see you later.”
After I ended the call, I asked plainly, “Why are you still here? Our conversation is finished.”
He shook his head hard. “It’s not over. We aren’t over. I don’t care how many useless men you sleep with.”
I laughed. “Bruno, you tried this before, and it didn’t end well. Don’t push me, because I won’t back down or have a change of heart.”
Rubbing his elbow, Bruno nodded. “I still have the scars to remember.”
A year ago, after returning to the college dorm, I found Bruno and Monique Beckford, the roommate who pretended she was a friend, in the act. She was deep-throating Bruno’s disloyal cock while he screamed in bliss. In fact, I heard them before even opening the door, but like a fool I entered, thinking there had to be an explanation. Well, after they were found, Monique looked so proud of herself.
“Since you didn’t know how to take care of him, I just fucking stepped up.”
Bruno fumbled with his zipper and wasted time speaking. “Alex, I’m sorry.”
Between both of them, my emotions varied, but I wasn’t about to fight over a man.
“You two can have each other,” I said and meant it.
I left the room and never looked back at either. This shocked Bruno, who spent days, then weeks, trying to earn my forgiveness. When that didn’t happen, the manipulative ass thought I was still under his spell and cornered me one day.
“Alex, let me explain.”
Walking around him, I kept going down the path, the sky watching over us a silent witness to the end of our relationship.
Bruno ran after me. “Please let me explain. I can’t live without you.”
“Then go ahead and die,” I hurled and walked away.
He grabbed my arm to stop me, but I shoved him off without hesitation, fury blazing hotter than anything moving through my veins.
“I’ll jump into traffic,” he threatened.
Mid-step, I stopped and turned around. Both of us locked eyes as we stood on the sidewalk. Cars whipped past beside us on the busy street, and the noise seemed to give me a suggestion. Slowly, I walked toward Bruno.
“I’m sorry,” he mumbled.
When I was close enough, I shoved him hard, rage blinding me as he stumbled backward toward oncoming traffic.
“You already killed me. No fucking reason you should get to live.”
I didn’t just lose a boyfriend that day. I lost my belief in love and loyalty.
“A broken arm and my life flashing before me as the cars all slammed on their brakes around me, desperately trying not to run over my body…” Bruno said, bringing me back to the present.
Glaring at him, I spoke firmly. “Always a lying sack of shit. You said you wanted to die. Why try so damn hard to live, then? I also remember you promised to leave me the hell alone. Why are you here? Does this look like leaving me alone?”
“I made them invest, and now my job is on the line.”
For the briefest of moments, the idea of sinking my whole company just to ruin Bruno’s career flashed through my head. But he was no longer important. I’d put everything into Amoré Nights, and unlike him, there was no reason to kill it.
The door to my office burst open and slammed against the wall with a force that startled me. Eliana carried a worried expression. “We have a problem.”
“What?” I asked, already on my feet.
She looked from me to Bruno as if wondering if we should speak privately.
“Our fates are tied to Amoré Nights. Go ahead.”
Eliana wasted no time. “We’re being sued.”
“Amoré Nights? By who? It’s still in beta. For what?”
Bruno spoke. “You should call the company lawyer.”
“I don’t need you to tell me what to do. Is that some sort of difficult decision? Who else did you think I’d call, the janitor?”
“Alex, focus,” Eliana said, as if she were the boss and not me.
Still, in that moment she was right. I jumped into action, calling the legal team, and soon everyone gathered in my office.
“Mr. Davis is suing on grounds of libel. The man has an embarrassing one-star rating average from women on the app, and now nobody will date him.”
I waited for the rest. When the lawyer said nothing, I looked around the office. “He’s wasting his time. Every platform has the same protections, and we’ll beat him if it even goes to court.”
“Ms. Ortega is correct. How quickly can you have his lawsuit dismissed?” Bruno asked.
The lawyer answered slowly. “Does Amoré Nights use any vetting policy for ratings?”
“Really? Reviews are everywhere online. What procedure would…” I began to rant but cut myself off. This would not help, and he clearly had more to say.
“At the moment, users are free to rate and leave reviews, and the problem is Mr. Davis insists everything written is false,” the lawyer finished.
“All of them?” Eliana blurted out.
I let out a short laugh. “Twenty-five members rated him, and he says not one of them told the truth.”
“That is Mr. Davis’ stance.”
Bruno came to my side, like we were partners on the issue. “We could easily beat him in court, but I don’t want it to delay or hurt the launch. Amoré Nights can’t afford bad press that makes men run from the app. That would ruin you.”
What had been a joke seconds ago now felt dangerously real. My hand curled into a fist. “Pay him off. Money talks.”
“Are you sure?” one of the lawyers asked.
Did I want another man to get away with screwing me? No, but I didn’t have a choice.
“Wait. Doesn’t the app agreement bind users to arbitration? I’m sure many of those women would love to go on record about how much Mr. Davis sucks. In my experience, an angry woman can go on at length about why she dislikes you,” Bruno said.
If that was a jab at me, I didn’t care.
“But what about the press?” I asked.
“The app just did what you intended, spared another woman from meeting that man. Now we should protect ourselves a bit further. Disable written comments and leave only the rating system. Then legal will add more verbiage about not being responsible for the ratings and that no one may request changes or sue because of dissatisfaction.”
“Mr. Gasol could have a point. Those lines about his smell, sweaty hands, and beady eyes probably set him off,” Eliana said.
Damn, leave it to my fellow women to go that deep into the details. I nodded, and after a bit more back and forth, it seemed the crisis was averted. Finally, with my office mostly cleared, I looked at Eliana. “Can you get me a cup of coffee?”
She started to leave but stopped. “I know you have history with Mr. Gasol, but in this case, he helped.”
I didn’t answer, and she went out to do as I’d asked.
“Hip-fucking-hooray. My ex, the man I swore off, is now hailed as a hero at my own company. The only thing left is for them to put Bruno on their shoulders and carry him around while I stand by and watch,” I muttered to myself.
Even in my somber mood, sunlight forced its way through the tall office windows and into my face. I sat there, tormented and silent. I was fairly certain soon many in my staff would liken Bruno to Amoré Nights’ savior, and I was left with nothing but bruised pride. I didn’t want that man to rescue me. Given a few short hours, I would’ve thought of the same solution. All he did was think quickly on his feet. Now, he’d be called on to make good decisions under pressure.
Give me a break.
Where was that skill when he decided to screw Monique?
Drowning In Disappointment
The beat dropped, and my thighs burned, but I pressed the pedals harder, letting the music swallow the pain. In the low-lit studio, I kept pushing while the instructor shouted.
“You can do it, ladies. Don’t quit.”
For some, her voice might be annoying, but I found it motivational. I focused on the large window that framed Manhattan in the morning light, like a moving postcard, and kept going. When the song finally ended and a new one began, I looked around the room at my friends: Demetria gritted her teeth, Mei mouthed the lyrics, and Olivia rode like her soul depended on it. We looked put together, four women sweating in sync on thousand-dollar bikes, but in my case, looks could be deceiving. My foot slipped on the pedal, just a bit, and the city shook. Bruno’s resurgence had thrown my world off center. Still, in here, with the city watching, I spun like nothing could touch me.
When the spin class finally ended, I was drenched. We all were. We headed to the sauna when Demetria spoke. “How’s the launch coming?”
She meant Bruno but knew I might lose my shit if she mentioned him.
“Yes, isn’t the Amoré Nights team still all in one piece?” Mei asked.
Olivia shook her head. “Don’t worry, I’ve got bail money ready, girl.”
“Why don’t you guys understand how unbothered I am by him now? Bruno is not someone I feel anything for anymore. I’m not blushing at the office. He is like a stapler. Sometimes useful, mostly clutter.”
Mei winked at me, and I knew what was coming before she said a word. “Use him to fill any holes lately?”
“Fuck no. I have a whole app at my disposal. Why would I let Bruno get near me again?”
It was only a matter of time before Demetria gave her two cents, and she never varied. “You two were perfect together. It was sad how it ended.”
“That was all him,” Olivia added as we settled into the steam room.
“Can we discuss someone other than me? Who are you people fucking?”
Mei smiled. “My latest is an actor. He saw me walking on a runway and already paid for a semester of medical school.”
The three of us dropped our jaws in unison.
“Damn, Mei, you have gold down there.”
She shook her head. “He hasn’t even gotten any yet. Just a rich man showing off, so I gave him a bill to impress me with.”
Laughter echoed off the cedar walls as we lounged in the sauna, sweat glistening and spirits high, like it often was when we were together.
“Olivia, how is wedding planning going?” I asked.
“If I knew it would be so annoying, I’d have just dragged Luke to elope in Vegas,” she said, causing us to switch attention to her.
“Elope? Both of your families are old money, upper society. They would kill you,” I pointed out.
My friend sighed. “Exactly. It’s not happening.”
“Just remember, you stole the groom from his lesbian fiancée. Annoying or not, you’d better plan your victory party,” Mei teased.
To anyone outside our circle, that phrase would raise more than a few questions. Why would a lesbian be engaged to Olivia’s current fiancé?
Demetria’s eyes flashed with mischief as she said, “Or you could always give Luke back to the woman you stole him from. Then you wouldn’t have to plan a wedding.”
Olivia twisted her face, displeased. “Very funny.”
It was. The three of us laughed. After we spent more time in the sauna talking about Olivia’s fashion company and the rest of our sex lives, I hurried to the office.

Once I walked off the elevator, I saw my receptionist in a low-cut shirt, fanning her chest as she spoke to Bruno.
That was fast.
When did these two become so friendly? Tina pointed to something on a piece of paper, leaving him no choice but to lean over to see what it was. She smiled, aware that from where Bruno stood he had a full view of her chest, which that blouse struggled to cover properly. Even from behind them I could see her hardened nipples poking through the fabric.
“Oops, I got something on my shirt,” she said when Bruno stared at the paper longer than she liked.
Like a well-trained dog, he lifted his eyes to where Tina pointed, right by her erect nipple.
She leaned forward. “This is my favorite shirt.”
Bruno straightened himself but never took his eyes off the show she gave.
Really? At the front desk for all to see, while representing my company, Tina was brazen. She didn’t even notice me. Obviously, this job wasn’t this woman’s first priority. My receptionist traced a slow line over her breast, watching Bruno the entire time, every motion unmistakable.
“Like what you see?”
“I don’t,” I said. “This is my place of business, not a bar. Tina, get your things. You’re done here.”
Bruno turned and Tina stood abruptly.
My ex wore the same expression he had given me a year ago in my dorm room. Guilty. Tina’s cheeks turned red, and shame filled her eyes. Bitch, please!
“Ms. Ortega. I-I-I didn’t mean…” she managed, stumbling over the words.
I pointed at her neckline. “Your nipple is showing. Fix yourself and go.”
As she tucked her breasts back into the extra-small shirt, I spoke firmly. “Hurry and leave before I have security escort you out. You were the face of my company, and this is what you’re doing at the welcome desk.”
Heading to my office, I was pissed. Not jealous, obviously. Definitely not. I didn’t want Bruno. She was free to have him, but me paying her an hourly wage to sift through my garbage was not an option.
I wasn’t surprised when Bruno walked in behind me.
“Just then, out there? I didn’t encourage Tina.”
“You didn’t stop her either.” I let out a small laugh. “Right? You drooling didn’t help Tina’s nipples harden in any way.”
“Alex, be reasonable. I can’t help it if that woman—shit, any woman—finds me attractive. I never came on to them.”
Somehow, this conversation seemed to be about two different instances.
“Poor Bruno. Your only fault was being so irresistible to the ladies.”
He looked ready to lose his temper, and I wished he fucking would. Because then I could really hurl this paperweight I’d been eyeing at his head.
“You’re being unreasonable…give me a break. You are fucking half of New York.”
“Half? You’re undercounting. I’m more than halfway through all of them by now.”
Four minutes passed and we hadn’t stopped snapping at each other. Our words grew sharper and louder, until suddenly neither of us had anything left to hurl.
Silence.
Bruno stood in front of me, jaw clenched.
The anger on my tongue shifted into something different. I ignored it.
“Makes no sense what you’re doing. Fucking people to hurt or forget me.”
My laughter was uncontrollable. “Bruno, when a good cock is in me—your ego might not believe this—but I don’t remember you.”
Silence.
“I’m fucking done,” he said.
“You make it sound like that hasn’t been the case for a while. Fuck Tina, anybody you want. Shit, I have a whole dating app you can choose from.”
Obviously, I’d be the first to give him a one-star rating.
“Let’s just get through the media events, then deal with the rest later,” he said.
Briefly, I watched him, puzzled, before it hit me that Bruno planned to come with me to California. We still had the Greenslate dinner and the PR tour. I didn’t love the idea, but one thing you could count on was my poker face. This man, more than anyone, would not get the satisfaction of seeing me shaken. “Be ready to leave tonight so we can catch the red-eye.”
He shrugged. “Fine.”
“FINE!” I yelled, not proudly, but why did he suddenly act as if I’d invited him and he was begrudgingly coming?
We boarded the flight like strangers, though just hours ago we were bickering like two people who knew exactly where to hit and cause the most damage to each other. For more than five hours, we sat side by side, Bruno with his arms crossed, while I stared out the window, pretending the clouds were more fascinating than they really were. Not a word was spoken the whole flight, but his presence was louder than anything he could’ve said. And maybe, just maybe, I hated how much I still felt it.
When the plane landed at LAX Airport, I stood.
Bruno broke the silence as I removed my bag from the overhead compartment. “Alex, let’s put our differences aside and work hard to give Amoré Nights the best launch possible.”
I glared. This was my baby. Why wouldn’t I work to give it the best way forward? “Fine. Let’s go.”
Our itinerary for California was packed. We had interviews with all the television stations and every social media influencer Greenslate had connections with, and unfortunately for me, all of them had the same annoying questions. After the ninth interview, the smile plastered on my face slipped. As the face of Amoré Nights, there was an expectation, not just that I was a believer in love, but also that I was actively searching for it to make my existence whole. Across from this annoying Bay Point News Now reporter, I desperately tried to keep the mask in place. “Why did you create Amoré Nights?”
Why? I knew many women were fools for love and figured I’d multiply my trust fund in a short amount of time. “For the women who are searching for love in all the wrong places. I want to help them,” I answered as my cheeks hurt slightly from holding the fake smile in place, but I had too much depending on this, so I held it in, steady like armor.
“Let’s be honest, do we need a new dating app?”
Hell no, each app had the same rejects, just with a different profile.
“I think one more doesn’t hurt if it has something new to offer. Amoré Nights is like a village, women rating and helping each other.”
When she nodded at my answer, I tried to stretch my smile a bit wider. It still didn’t reach my eyes, but it seemed to be enough.
The reporter looked at my finger, and already I knew the next question.
“I don’t see a ring. Are you on Amoré Nights?”
I didn’t miss a beat. “Of course, I’m looking for Mr. Right, just like so many women. We’re all romantics at heart. I’m not going to pretend I’m not the biggest among them.”
I was mid-lie, my voice smooth and composed, when a loud crash tore through the room without warning. My head snapped up, and there Bruno was, standing by the mess he’d caused, eyes locked on mine like he was shocked I possessed the skill to lie as well as he could. For a second, everything else vanished. The noise, the cameras, even the interviewer’s voice faded into nothing. It was just him and me, locked in a stare.
I sat there, ears ringing, bits of porcelain scattering across the floor. A producer rushed over, headset bobbing, waving a phone.
“Alexandra, quick reel for TikTok. Sixty seconds.”
I smiled, the kind that really hurt my cheeks. “Love should feel like a risk worth taking.”
The biggest lie I told today.
Bruno heard every syllable. His jaw flexed once, then he looked away.
“Great, we got it,” the producer called. Someone yanked off my mic. Fluorescent lights, burnt coffee smell, my pulse drumming in my temples.
Bruno came forward and handed me an open bottle of water. I snatched it and took a large sip.
“You were very convincing. Anyone would think you were love’s biggest champion,” he said.
“Occupational hazard,” I said, then turned toward the exit. His footsteps followed, echoing a beat behind mine. We couldn’t even manage to walk in sync.
Finally, all the interviews were done, but instead of a meal and drink at the bar, and me checking out what California had to offer, Greenslate demanded my appearance.
“If you need my help at dinner, don’t be afraid to ask,” Bruno suggested, hand hovering near my back, not quite touching.
While looking him in the eye, I resisted the urge to roll my eyes. “I can handle my business.”
The city lights flickered against the windows while our driver moved quickly to open the door. I slid into the cool leather interior. Bruno followed, shutting the door behind him. The car moved away from the studio without hesitation. Silence took over, heavy and awkward. We were headed for the hotel, early enough that I might grab a drink before things started.
The driver merged onto Sunset. Reflections from various shop windows slid across Bruno’s face, softening the line of his jaw.
“I’m really impressed with how you handled the interviews, especially the last one,” he said in a low, careful voice.
“It was a fluff piece,” I answered. “Not exactly Pulitzer work.”
“Still,” he tried again, “I know how much is riding on this launch. You made it look effortless.”
I watched sunlight slide over the tinted glass and pretended to adjust my blazer. “I don’t need a pat on the back from you. I just did what anyone else would.”
Silence.
He let out a small exhale. “I don’t want us keeping score tonight. Can we get through dinner as a team?”
“Teams trust each other,” I said, then glared at him. “I will never be foolish enough to trust you again.”
Bruno nodded once, fingers tapping his thigh in a slow, restless rhythm. The car filled with traffic noise and every topic we knew better than to discuss.
Outside, the marquee appeared, shining like a verdict.
He opened the door, stepped out, and sighed. “I never lied, Alex. It was a one-time mistake. She was on my dick before I had a chance…”
Stepping out of the car as Bruno held the door, I answered. “Poor Bruno. Did five-four Monique hold you at gunpoint, unzip your pants, force you to sit, manage to keep your legs open while deep-throating your cock? Did you file a police report about your traumatic experience?”
Bruno shook his head and would not meet my eyes as we walked into the venue. “Forget it. Let us just finish the dinner.”
But I was heated. If he wanted to talk, then let’s do it. “Men. You’re all the same.”
We stayed quiet as the hostess walked us to our table. No need for everyone to overhear my ex-boyfriend and me arguing. After we sat, we ordered a round of drinks. The higher-ups would take their time getting there.
“Alex, you have daddy issues,” Bruno said from across the table. A second later, he lowered his head and shut his eyes, already regretting the words.
One mention of my padre cracked my armor. I hated him even more for knowing exactly where to aim.
“Oh really?”
Defiantly, Bruno locked eyes with me and nodded. “Yes, and for the record, just because I made one mistake doesn’t mean I’m anything like your father.”
My jaw tightened. “You are exactly like him.”
I grabbed my drink and drained the remaining contents.
“Forget I said anything,” Bruno said before finishing his drink.
“You’re the damn one who keeps opening your mouth.”
“Well, I won’t make that mistake going forward. You can finally get your wish. I’m leaving you alone. I’ve been sorry. I’m done. You won’t forgive me. It seems you can’t let it go.”
Without much effort, a witty comeback was at the tip of my tongue, but I didn’t use it. Instead, the finality of how he spoke hit me.
Around us, people talked and laughed, their joy spilling into every corner. We sat across from each other, avoiding one another’s gaze, two strangers sharing a table.
“You can have your wish, Alex. I’m done.”
His voice struck like a bad chorus. My throat tightened.
Probably allergies. Not feelings. Never feelings.
Still, the thought of showing up at the office without Bruno landed heavier than it should have.
I’d told him to get lost more times than I could remember. I yelled it, I typed it, and I would have carved it on my forehead if that were considered normal.
So why did the idea of him being gone feel impossible to bear?
Girl, get a grip on yourself.
I had survived twelve Bruno-free months, yet the idea of days without him now felt wrong in my bones.
Maybe I’d gone too far. I always swung hard when anger took control, and any mention of Padre sent me straight to overdrive. But the prospect of Bruno missing from the office hit like a train I never saw coming.
Ask him to stay. The idea wavered, fragile and bright. I doubted I could say it aloud, but the ache in my chest begged me to try.
Laughter rose and fell around us. The smell of wine and garlic hung in the air. Decision time edged closer, as unavoidable as my next breath.
Once my investors arrived, it did not take long before I was pushing food across my plate and taking slow sips of Negronis. The bitter drink seemed fitting. People called me a bitter woman who hated men, especially the one leaving as I’d asked. But a strange uncertainty stirred inside me.
Dinner needed no smile. Only numbers. I ran the deck. That sort of discussion I could do in my sleep, and I had to admit that what the alcohol left me too foggy to discuss, Bruno handled. By the time the Greenslate investors left us, he and I sat silently, ordering more rounds. This would likely be the last night we ever shared a drink. As the night went on, everything blurred. The bartender with the perfect white smile got overly friendly. His fingers brushed mine when he poured my drink.
I let them.
I remember Bruno leaving, and I invited someone to join me for fun. I did recall stumbling through the hotel lobby, laughing too loudly, my footsteps uneven, the buzz from the alcohol cushioning me. I leaned against the door to steady myself and catch my breath but never got to finish. His mouth crushed mine, tasting like whiskey and every bad idea I’d ever had. My fingers tangled in his hair as his hands tightened on my waist, the hall tipping slightly, blurring into something that felt unreal.
“Get a room,” some annoyed man called after us.
I did have a room, and until the stranger interrupted us, I thought my new California friend and I were already inside. I searched my bag for the key card as his hand kneaded my breast. The door might have been opened quicker if I didn’t take a break to lean my head back for a few seconds so I could enjoy his magic fingers.
Finally, I got the door open and stumbled into the room. Behind us, the door slammed shut. He pulled my shirt off and groaned as his mouth closed around my nipple, tongue hot and wet, sucking until I cried out.
“God,” I gasped, fisting the back of his shirt. “Don’t stop.”
He didn’t. His hands were everywhere, mouth devouring me like he’d been starved.
We fell onto the bed, and I was ready to enjoy every inch of him. He’d lit a fire under my skin, one more powerful than I’d felt in a long while.
The Day Before We Met
The pain in my head was intense. So much that I vowed never to drink alcohol again. With my eyes closed tight, I drew in a few deep breaths and then went still when I caught a familiar scent. Sandalwood and vetiver, faint but unmistakable.
Bruno.
My eyes flew open, and my heart raced. I turned to the side and found him peacefully asleep next to me. Panic rushed through me, and I shot upright and pushed his shoulder firmly.
“Get up.”
Startled, Bruno blinked and rubbed his head. “Why did you do that?”
That’s what he was worried about? The last thing I recalled was him paying the bill and me chatting up the bartender. The rest was really a blur.
“Tell me we didn’t sleep…” he muttered, eyes darting to the sheets.
I looked at him in disbelief; I was naked, and so was he. It didn’t take a genius to put two and two together.
“All I remember is coming back to the table to try speaking with you again. We might have had a few more drinks.”
“Get out.”
Bruno’s eyes widened as he lifted his palms. “Wait—”
“Out,” I repeated, dragging the sheet tighter around me as I rushed from the bed.
I shoved him toward the door with one hand, clutching the sheet with the other. My cheeks burned hotter than the sun pushing through the curtains.
“Alex, let’s just talk about this like adults.”
“Just go,” I hissed, heart pounding with a mix of panic and shame I couldn’t begin to untangle.
He scrambled for his pants and shoes as I shoved a half-naked Bruno out of the room, slammed the door, and tried to steady myself. I had been in all kinds of situations, but this one was new, even for me. Sleeping with a man and not remembering it. And of all the men in California, I had to go and fall into bed with BRUNO?
I feel sick to my stomach.
Bruno, the same man I’d promised never to touch again. I once swore if he needed a drop of spit from me, I’d let him die. Now I had slept with him.
Before my head exploded with thoughts, I hurried to the bathroom, brushed my teeth, splashed water on my face, and decided to go for a jog. I had to get out. Just looking at the messy sheets that smelled of sweat and Bruno’s cologne made me uneasy.
Minutes later, I was outside, running hard despite the hangover, hoping the pounding of my feet and the Los Angeles sun would burn away the disappointment and confusion. Two miles in, my mind was still stuck on last night. My lungs burned, sweat drenched my back, and sneakers struck the pavement like they wanted punishment. If I ran hard enough, maybe I could erase it.
After a while, I made a U-turn and dragged my tired legs back to the hotel.
The sun seemed to mock me, shining straight into my eyes. I raised a hand to block it just as my phone rang. I wasn’t in the mood to talk but checked because, after all, I had a company that would launch any day now. When I saw Demetria’s name, I shook my head. She’d have a field day with this one.
“Hey.”
“I saw you on a few news shows out here. You looked fabulous,” she said.
Rather than wait until I saw her again and stumble through this awful confession in person, I decided to just get it over with. I could use the scolding I deserved. “I slept with Bruno.”
Silence.
“Did you hear me?”
The sun beat down, heating the concrete while I walked with the phone against my ear.
Cars whipped past in blurs of chrome and noise.
Finally, Demetria spoke. “So, what does this mean? Are you two back together?”
“Hell no!” I yelled, too loud.
“So, what? You broke up with Bruno to be friends with benefits? I don’t get it.”
I spent the next mile explaining how I kicked him from my room, parts of last night that I remembered, the number of drinks, and even the car ride when Bruno told me goodbye, and I felt uneasy.
“Whoa. Alex, please talk to him. You guys need to have an adult conversation,” Demetria said, then paused for a second. “If you ask me, you two have unresolved feelings. Sounds like you were miserable at the thought he’d disappear and got drunk to mourn the pending loss.”
Leave it to Demetria to act like my therapist. “I’ve had casual sex plenty of times.” I shrugged.
“Nothing between you and Bruno is casual. Plus, why do you sound so distraught if it’s no big deal?”
I let out a groan. She knew me too well, and I hated it.
By the end, we’d shifted to safer topics. I wasn’t calm exactly, but I at least could breathe normally again.
Thanks to the talk, my walk back went quickly. As I left the elevator, all I wanted was a hot shower and to get into bed. Housekeeping should’ve changed the sheets by now. Yes, the man was gone, and soon after my shower, all traces of Bruno would disappear.
That was my thought until I approached my room. What I saw made me rush to hide behind the ice machine. I watched a fully clothed Bruno knock on my hotel door, loud and sharp. Frightened he’d see me, I held my breath as he glanced around, and pressed back against the wall, willing myself invisible.
“Alex, I know you’re in there,” he said after the next three knocks. When that got no reply, Bruno hit the door harder.
“Alex. Stop this childish crap. We have to talk—”
He paused when two doors near my room opened. Each occupant stared at him.
Bruno wisely backed away from my door, and when he started walking toward me, I slipped away from the machine and hid in the staircase. Coward, I told myself.
A whole minute passed before I figured the coast was clear and I could get inside my room. The elevator had already sounded, so I assumed Bruno was gone by now. Still, I sprinted down the hall, heart thudding, and fumbled with the key before shoving the door open and slipping inside, breathless. My heart was racing so hard it echoed in my ears. I poured myself a glass of water to calm down. Then something hit me. Bruno’s scent was still in my room. Confused, I looked around at the freshly made bed. Then the carpet line that told me it was vacuumed. The room was turned over, but still he was going nowhere.
He was like a damn STD I couldn’t fucking be rid of. Yes, initially there was enjoyment, but the aftereffects left me regretting my actions.
In that moment, I made the decision to leave. All the scheduled PR stuff was done the day prior. Today was all about influencers, and my staff could handle it. After booking myself a ticket on the next flight, I took a quick shower. With my hair still damp, I dressed in record time. Then grabbed all the clothes I brought and shoved them into my carry-on bag with shaking hands. “I’m fucking out of here.”
I slipped out of the hotel in a baseball cap and oversized sunglasses, looking like a budget celebrity dodging paparazzi, pretending that leaving Los Angeles would somehow erase my mistakes.
Demetria called it running when I told her of my actions once I was safely in the airport terminal.
“I’m not running. I just don’t need to spend any more time with him.”
“You can’t dodge Bruno forever, Alex.”
As I waited in the TSA line, I rolled my eyes. “Call it whatever you fucking want. I don’t need this complicated crap in my life right now.”
She backed off, so I ended the call, but Demetria’s words stayed with me the entire flight back to the East Coast.
When I landed and spotted a call from my father, I closed my eyes and braced myself. Typically, all calls came from my madre, so the fact he was calling meant it was important.
“Yes, Padre.”
“Oh, I hear you have been ignoring your mother’s calls. Wanted to see if you had balls that I wasn’t aware of, and would dare to not pick up if I phoned.”
So, he’d called to argue. Figures.
“I just got off a flight from California—”
“Why do I care?”
Silence.
“Your mother and I are coming to America. It’s about time I see the reason you wasted that expensive business degree I paid for, and what nonsense phone app your mother is talking about.”
Silence.
“Alexandra. I’m speaking to you,” he said in a tone I remembered from my childhood. No warmth, only authority.
“I didn’t know you were finished speaking. Thought there were more insults coming, and I know how you hate being interrupted.”
I braced myself for him to start yelling, but when seconds passed and he didn’t, I lowered my phone briefly to see the screen. He was still there.
“Next Tuesday we will arrive in New York. Your mother wants to stay with you to see how you’re living. Any questions?”
Hell yes. The app celebration party was Tuesday. I did not need this. And who knew how long this unbearable visit would last. Why was it really happening? My father didn’t normally waste any time on me. I was a daughter, another man’s future namesake; he only cared for his boys, my loser brothers. So, I didn’t bother saying much.
“No.”
“Good.”
Even after seconds passed, his words still stung. Me. I’m the child he wanted to check up on. Me? At least I finished school. Just the thought of my family annoyed me. If it wasn’t for the trust fund I got after graduating college, and whatever I’d inherit when he finally died, I would’ve gone no contact long ago.
In every way I’d surpassed my brothers, time and time again. Santiago was in jail for murder. That bully killed his girlfriend, taking the if I can’t have you nobody will statement too far. Danny was divorced and selfishly avoided paying child support for the children he’d refused to see in years. The fact Padre needed convincing to be proud of me, after their complete failures, was infuriating. OK, only Edwardo was of any use to Padre, as he’d taken over the family shipping company, and he ran it so well Ortega Shipping had outgrown anything our father dreamed of.
I was lost in my thoughts when the sudden ring of my phone startled me, snapping me back to the present as the taxi weaved through traffic.
It was Bruno. No sense avoiding him. We’d have to have a conversation sooner than later, so I accepted the call.
“Where are you? I heard you checked out.” He barely let me put the phone to my ear before asking.
“Home. My team can handle the rest of the PR.”
I heard him sigh. “We need to talk.”
“Go ahead. Isn’t that what we’re doing right now?”
“Not like this. I want to speak face to face about serious matters.”
I knew what he’d ask, and the answer was no. Sleeping together didn’t change anything. “It was a drunken mistake.”
“Alex!”
Ignoring his interruption, I continued, “You said it best a year ago. Let’s do what you asked then, forget it ever happened.”
“Letting Monique touch me was a mistake. We weren’t a mistake. I love you.”
I hung up before he could say anything else, before his voice cracked my resolve.
Love lingered in the air like smoke, stinging more than it should.
Outside the taxi window, New York blurred past, the city too busy to care about my wavering feelings. I pressed my phone face-down on my thigh, my fingers trembling just enough to make me clench them. This was a mess, a big one.
I Don’t Wanna Hurt No More
The weatherman gave every New Yorker the same warning: cold, snow, stay home. However, he was always wrong. How bad could it really be? Either way, the office wouldn’t be packed today, only those living close enough would make the commute. Instead of my usual blazer and heels, I pulled on a cashmere sweater and jeans. Then my heavy coat. For my trek, I reached for my waterproof snow boots, sat near the door, and laced them up. When I was done, I hesitated, my pulse quickening as though something might bite the moment I stepped out. The hard part wasn’t leaving; it was finding the courage to do it.
Even though my personal life was a mess, I wasn’t about to let Amoré Nights suffer. I reached for the knob. You can do this.
On adrenaline and false confidence, I strutted to the elevator, steps away from my front door.
By the time I hit the lobby, the doorman’s mouth dropped open.
“Morning, Jarvis. I’ll see you later.”
He blinked. “Ms. Ortega, you’re headed to the office? I thought you were the boss.”
“The snow will probably stop falling soon,” I said, then walked through the door he held open.
Plus, that was exactly the point. If anyone needed to set the example, it should be me. Some of my employees could not work from home, which made showing up important. It was nearly the end of January; the whole reason we wanted to launch Amoré Nights now was so women would credit my little app for getting them the best Valentine’s Day ever. February was days away.
As I slowly made my way toward the office, the few blocks from my condo now felt like a trek up Mount Everest. The wind whipped snow against my face, stinging and blinding me as I stumbled forward, barely able to see more than a few feet ahead.
Damn, for once the weatherman was right. I hated men!
Eventually, I made it. Stomped the snow from my boots and went to the elevator. I needed coffee, something warm. Minutes later, I walked into Amoré Nights and was shocked to find the place full.
A smile tugged at my lips, then spread wider. The majority of my staff were here, in sweaters and jeans, clicking away.
“So, none of you trusted the weatherman, or are you just the best employees I could ever ask for?”
“Both,” someone said.
Another voice yelled, “Who would’ve thought he’d get one right.”
Laughter rippled through the office, and Eliana pressed a hot cup of coffee into my hands.
“Bless you,” I said, taking a sip immediately. “OK. If you’re all going to work, I’ll get started. Can’t have it said I’m slacking.”
After offering my staff one last warm look, I hurried to my office and went in.
“We have to talk.”
The corners of my mouth fell when I spotted Bruno at my desk. I looked back at the door to make sure it was shut.
Then, in a low pleading voice, I spoke. “Why are you in here?”
Silence.
Carrying a dejected expression, Bruno didn’t answer. I removed my coat and hung it on the hook. “I have work to do.”
“So, that’s it? You’ll pretend we never happened,” he said, voice tight.
Out of reflex, I was ready to defend myself. “I don’t need to explain myself to you.”
Bruno stood. “Running from California and hiding in your condo all weekend. What’s that going to achieve? The old Alex would face challenges head-on.”
“The old Alex is gone. Isn’t that clear by now?”
He gave no sign that he’d heard me. “Let’s talk now like adults.”
I stared at him in disbelief. “This is my place of business. Amoré Nights launches soon. I don’t have time.”
“Make some,” he ordered, and that tone wasn’t one to use with me. “Let’s meet after work at the coffee shop next to the building.”
Was he not listening?
“Bruno. The other night, I was drunk. I’m not changing course in my life because I couldn’t hold my liquor.”
He flinched. “It was more than that, don’t pretend…”
“Leave my office. Do not pretend to know how I feel better than I do. If I say nothing comes from it, then that’s it.”
Before he could get another word out, I yanked my office door open. “Mr. Gasol. Please excuse me. I need to get back to work.”
Bruno closed the distance in fast, long steps, his jaw tight and his eyes burning with anger. When he reached the door, he glared at me.
“You’re so fucking stubborn,” he snapped before storming out.
Naturally, the whole office heard his words and now stared at me. Frustrated, I slammed the door shut with a sharp echo.
Eventually, the snow stopped, streets were plowed, and many of the sidewalks were already shoveled. The possibility of legal consequences keeps every New Yorker with property careful about clearing the sidewalks, afraid of fines or lawsuits. So, I offered my hardworking employees lunch at the ramen restaurant nearby. I gave Eliana my credit card and told them to go ahead. I wanted to finish up a call with Olivia, who for the last six minutes had scolded me about screwing Bruno.
“Didn’t we say he was trash?” she reminded me.
It brought a smile to my face. “Yes.”
“So, why are you eating from the trash when you own a dating app, with endless options?”
Leave it to my friend to make things sound so simple. “I was drunk, I wouldn’t willingly dumpster-dive.”
“Well. Protect your heart.” Olivia said exactly what I’d been thinking since that night.
Even through the anger, I could no longer pretend I lacked a heart. Once, it had been full of love for Bruno. A year of steady effort had drained those feelings, and going back now felt impossible.
“I’m on it.”
After that assurance, she hung up, and I left my office to meet the team for lunch. I was paying, so I might as well eat. I pressed the elevator button and smiled when it opened instantly. However, when the door completely opened, among the riders I spotted Bruno.
I took a deep breath before entering.
“Alex.”
Oh God, please tell me he didn’t plan on having this conversation for all to hear.
“Now isn’t the time,” I said flatly and pushed the lobby button.
Ignoring the desperation in my voice, Bruno spoke. “Earlier wasn’t a good time, and we were alone in your office.”
I spun around, glancing from him to the people. Through gritted teeth I spoke. “Not now.”
“When!”
Everyone gathered in the elevator only needed a tub of popcorn, and they’d be ready for a show. Only one guy pretended to have hearing loss and kept his eyes glued to his phone screen.
Lowering my head and voice, I whispered, “Later.”
“Let’s do it after work at the diner nearby,” Bruno said, then waited for me to lift my head. Before I could speak, he warned, “Either then, or I camp out in the lobby of your condo building.”
God no, my neighbors were all stuck-up rich society folks, so that would be a nightmare.
“Fine, let’s talk then.” One look at Bruno told me he didn’t believe me. As the elevator door opened and everyone filed out, I followed, then turned around to face him. “We need to get this over with. I’ll be there.”
“Six-fifteen?” Bruno asked with one brow raised.
Sighing, I rolled my eyes and turned to walk away. “I’m going to eat lunch. See you later.”
Behind me I heard him clearly. “Alex, don’t chicken out this time. Let’s put everything on the table, and if you still want to never see me again, I’m gone forever.”
Forever. Such a long time. So permanent.
Weirdly, it felt like a threat.
I stared at the clock all afternoon since lunch, and it felt like it had a personal vendetta, its minute hand sprinting around the face like it was late for something, dragging my sanity with it.
“See you tomorrow,” Eliana said, and I looked away from the clock on the wall and gave her a smile.
“You OK?” she asked softly.
Eager to have her gone, I rushed to my feet. “Yes. I have a meeting. See you tomorrow.”
My secretary lifted an eyebrow. “A meeting? There was nothing on your calendar. Do you need me there?”
“If I could, I’d have you go in my place.”
Eliana’s brow knit as she tilted her head. “What?”
“Forget it. Have a good night, see you tomorrow.” I walked out of the office and headed to the elevator; might as well get this over with. Once Bruno and I spoke, we could go on with our lives, and that’s what I wanted. Right?
It’s what I’ve been doing for a year very successfully.
Five minutes later, I walked into the diner, paused at the door, and scanned the place. All around, people ate, drank, some even smiled; clearly no one else was there against their will. Then I spotted Bruno, already seated with a plate of food and a steaming cup of coffee. I sighed, slipped off my coat, and sat across from him. “I’m here as promised. Let’s just get this over with.”
My choice of words wasn’t planned, but now that they were out there hanging between us, we both looked at each other.
“Alex. I don’t want us to be over.”
My throat tightened as I promised myself not to interrupt, to let Bruno say it all, as this might be the last time we spoke.
“That girl came on to me, and since you were pushing me away, out of anger I took her up on the offer.”
I bit my lip to stay silent. Really fucking hard. But my face and eyes tightened, so Bruno noticed he wasn’t making any progress.
“No. Don’t get me wrong. I’m not excusing what happened. I was an asshole.”
My body relaxed; finally, he said something we could agree on.
“Be fair. I didn’t technically fuck Monique. Yes, I let her give me oral sex in a moment of weakness.”
Not replying to that weak moment line took effort.
“We never did more than that. She was nothing compared to you. That day, I went to your dorm ready to fight for us, and the little psych major worked me over.
“She told me, ‘You are a handsome man. You do not need to beg any woman to stay.’
“After everything you had been saying and the way you had been acting, it got to me. I am not proud of how quickly I gave in, but you wanted space, to be with other men. That is how I interpreted it,” Bruno said.
As I sat there, his words had an annoying ring of truth. Well, partly. Still, when you get an eyeful like I did, no explanation can fix things. Bruno has always owned up to his betrayal, but his one moment of weakness wasn’t completely his fault.
Monique’s eyes always sparkled when Bruno entered the room, but he was a good-looking man. At the time I didn’t fault her for noticing. Shit, all my friends called him handsome, but I knew none of them would fuck him. Stupid of me for thinking all the women I came across would be just like the three I treasured…
The week Bruno cheated was a bad one for my family. My mother was all the way in Spain sobbing into the telephone about Padre’s deceit. He’d secretly fathered not one, not two, but three children with a woman who’d showed up at my mother’s gate to ask for a larger weekly allowance. He was away on business, and according to his mistress, that didn’t mean her children should go without. Imagine the fucking nerve. If I were home, she’d get the hose turned on her.
In my ears, mother sobbed but wouldn’t acknowledge the advice I’d repeatedly given since the start of this conversation.
“Leave him.”
At the beginning of our chat, I was seething with anger at Padre’s betrayal and embarrassment, but the longer Mother ignored me and I realized she wasn’t going anywhere, my anger turned on her. “Why don’t you just let them move in?”
“¿Qué? (What?)”
“Well, for years, he’s been cheating, and you’ve never done anything; at least this would save him the time going from one house to another.”
“Alexandra!”
“What? You’re staying, aren’t you? Are you leaving him?”
Silence.
“I can’t listen to this anymore. Since I was five, all you’ve ever told me about were Father’s affairs. You’re a broken record. Keep getting cheated on, but doing absolutely nothing.”
“You’re too young. You don’t understand.”
I’d ended the call. What was there to understand? If a man cheated on me, I wasn’t staying.
All week I’d been a raging bitch. Arguing with all my girls, but nobody got it as bad as Bruno did. He was a man, and while I couldn’t curse my father out, Bruno would do just fine. I didn’t like how he looked, smelled, the way he kissed, or even chewed.
“What the fuck is wrong with you?” he’d demanded.
Silence.
I knew I was wrong; it wasn’t right to take this out on him, so I took a deep breath and gave what I thought was a good way to get some time. “I need a break.”
“Break? What? All week you’ve been a pain in the ass because you want to break up with me?”
That’s not what I meant but for some reason stayed silent.
“A fucking break after three years.”
“Bruno, my head is all over the place. I’m feeling a bunch of things. All I’m asking is for a little time to breathe and think.”
I thought it was a reasonable ask, but he stomped out of the room and slammed the door. Honestly, I took a few things for granted. Bruno would never give up so easily, and I expected to see him the very next day. However, when I did, Monique was enjoying him.
And now Bruno’s eyes glistened. No tears slipped free, but the hurt there made me wish that trip to California had never taken place. The sight stirred the heart I had insisted was numb and forced a painful awareness I did not want to admit. Then I remembered all the times I watched Padre crying as he apologized to Madre, and my body stiffened. Shit, a lot of guilty men cried. Demetria once said she could not believe how many men needed a box of tissues after they were caught fucking cheating on her. What about my tears, not just over Bruno, but the disappointment of realizing all the men in my life weren’t worth shit?
“Bruno, it’s too complicated. We can’t go back.”
I shot up from my seat, heart slamming, and rushed out of the diner, desperate for fresh air.
Go Back Where You Came From
I woke up on cloud nine, smiling from ear to ear. At twelve this morning, Amoré Nights moved from beta; no longer was it being tested by a small group. Finally, like in Spain, all of the United States was searching for love on my app. Despite my conflicting feelings on the subject, I needed each woman on the app to have more faith in the four-letter word than I did. The men, well, I’d never presume to know what they were truly searching for. I was now certain I knew nothing about men and probably never would. As I swung my legs to the side, a scent hit me. Shit! Months ago, I’d hired Dominic to cook a launch-day breakfast. I’d forgotten to cancel, and now the last man I wanted to see was in my kitchen.
The memory of that night I slept with him barged into my head, unwelcome, souring my appetite even more, but I wouldn’t overthink things. He was an employee, nothing more.
Everything felt different since sleeping with Bruno.
The way I looked at it, the chef got an early end-of-year bonus when I gave his dick a ride. Not about to hide in my bedroom, I walked into the kitchen. “Smells good. What are you making?”
“Cinnamon French toast,” he said, flashing an expression that looked more like a smirk than a smile.
Ignoring him, I took a seat and waited. Dominic set the plate down in front of me, though nothing on it looked appealing. A large sausage sat right in the middle. Maybe he thought it was enticing or funny. It was neither.
“Eat up!”
I rolled my eyes. The truth was the sausage was bigger and thicker than what he had in his pants. He foolishly made me compare the two. I reached for a knife and sliced the sausage into pieces but never put any into my mouth. Instead, I pushed it off my plate and forced all my attention on the French toast.
“Where’s the coffee?”
I refused to let a hired cook make me feel uncomfortable in my own home. I ate and ignored him, then left to get ready for the day. After a shower, I dressed in a rush as my heart pounded with excitement. How many people had downloaded the Amoré Nights app by now? Were they setting up dates for tonight? Pride pushed past the mix of emotions racing through me.
When I left the condo, I promised myself I’d tell Dominic his services would no longer be needed. But I knew how that would go. I always let useless people linger because it was easier than making time for the confrontation. I walked out the front door of my building and into a busy New York City street, with eight point three million people rushing in every direction. I stood on the sidewalk, grinning from ear to ear; the city was alive, and so was I. For once, in a long while, it felt like I had a path set ahead, and I lifted a hand for a taxi to stop. After one slammed on its brakes in front of me, I slid inside. “Take me to Sixty-Third and Madison.”
We sped through the streets, and I practically floated out of the cab, then upstairs, and stood in front of the Amoré Nights logo, which was proudly shining outside my suite. After waving at the new receptionist, I stood for a second outside the office door, listening to the lively voices and other noises on the other side; my team was busy at work.
Soon as I entered, Eliana rushed to my side. “We’re live.”
“Yes. We are,” I agreed, then gave her a concerned look. “But does anyone know? What are the numbers of new users?”
When her lips curled and eyes beamed, relief filled me. Nobody smiles that wide over bad numbers.
“One million users in the United States already. The media blast worked,” Eliana said.
“Yes,” I said, pumping a fist into the air.
People smiled around me.
“The influencer events Greenslate added might’ve been the key,” one employee added.
Eliana kept a watchful eye on me. “All our efforts worked.”
I nodded, then walked away, intending to phone the girls. They had to know these numbers.
“Where are you going?”
My secretary’s words made me freeze. I spun around. “To my office. Where else?”
She pointed in the other direction. “You told everyone to meet you in the conference room, remember?”
“Oh…yes, I remember,” I lied, then handed her my coat and bag, and I walked in the opposite direction. I didn’t get far down the hall before I saw Bruno approaching on the opposite side. Just like that, the excitement left my body, replaced by uneasiness. For a while it looked like he’d pass me, but for some reason my feet dragged and then finally stopped when he was beside me.
“Are you coming to the meeting?”
Bruno looked back in the direction I pointed to. “No, I’m heading out. Just grabbed my stuff from the office.”
“Amoré Nights is in business.”
“Yeah, you guys no longer need a babysitter.”
Nervously, I looked around, unable to meet his eyes. “Thanks for the help.”
“I’d do anything for you. Even leave when it’s hurting me.”
His words lodged in my chest like a stone. I stared hard at the wall, refusing to blink, because the last thing I wanted to do was cry.
“Stay safe, Bruno.”
Before my eyes betrayed me, I hurried to the conference room. When I pushed the door open, celebratory words and cheers greeted me. Every face in the room was smiling, so I forced one onto mine and hoped no one caught how strained it looked or how it masked a choice that would cost me sleep.
After the meeting, we actually got to work at Amoré Nights. There was more press to line up. Investors who wished to congratulate me. The telephone was held to my ear for the remainder of the day, and my arm was starting to hurt, but this was the best-case scenario. As the day wrapped up, I removed my shoes, leaned back in the chair, and for a brief moment enjoyed the peace and quiet. I did it.
With my eyes closed, I heard my office door open—no knock. Guess everyone forgot themselves with the celebration. When I looked and spotted James, I squinted. Damn, I hadn’t fired him yet. Well, today seemed as good a day as any.
“You can’t knock?”
He wore an expression I couldn’t place. “Why? What if you were fucking one or two of your boyfriends on the desk, and I wanted to see the show?”
His words made me sit up straight. Regardless of all the shit I talked, I’d never had sex with anyone from work, much less on my desk. For a bit I stared at him, shocked and furious. “Your time is up, buddy boy. You’re fired.”
James laughed. It was unexpected and quickly made me uneasy. For a man who I’d just fired, he was too calm. I stood. “What the hell is so funny? Get out of here.” When James didn’t move, I added, “Don’t make me call security.”
“Call them,” he said, lowering himself into the chair.
I reached for the phone. Something didn’t feel right.
“Before you do, I should mention I saved all your slutty activity from the beta. The dick pictures men sent you and every dirty conversation.”
I dropped the phone. Shit.
James’ smile grew, and the son of a bitch winked.
“You’re a whore, a pretty one, but still a hoe with way too much authority. Can’t have you dragging Amoré Nights down. If your reputation becomes public, what will the investors do? Can you imagine the press?”
Lowering myself back into the chair, I processed the situation calmly. The company’s success was tied to me. I was the face, CEO. James was right; Amoré Nights would be ruined. Still, I wasn’t about to roll over. “It would be your word against mine. Why would anyone believe a word…”
“You aren’t listening. I have evidence. I tracked every move you made on the app: the chats, slutty photos, everything.”
James handled back-end analytics since the first beta. He’d had access to every scrap of data.
Inside, I was breaking down, but I held it together. “What do you want?”
“Well, originally, I was going to order your ass on top of this desk and introduce you to a real man. But you’re a slut, so I’m not interested. I want a monthly payoff and the CEO title.”
I glared at the man. “You’d run my business into the ground. I might as well go down with the ship.”
He laughed again, and I fought every urge not to reach for the heavy paperweight. Prison sounded like a better option than what he was giving me.
“The truth is, I don’t even want to work. Just give me some money, and I’ll settle for COO position. What do you think, my little heiress?”
The confident way he spoke irked me, but I had to stay calm. This man was now holding the one thing I held dear in his hands. “I’ll get back to you.”
“Don’t you even want to know how much cash I’m asking?”
“If I say no, it won’t matter.”
He never took his eyes off me. “You won’t say no. This company is your baby; no woman turns her back on a baby,” he said, then stood to leave. “Don’t keep me waiting too long.”
I glared at him and nodded but noticed he didn’t leave.
He leaned back and smirked. “Shit! Maybe I’ll still take that fuck on top of this desk another time. The sky is the limit.”
The door slammed shut, and I sank into the chair, anger growing, but this time mixed with something else: fear. The problem with blackmailers is they’re never satisfied. First money. Then power. Next sex. After that, who knows, maybe a kidney. I couldn’t allow a man like James to twist me into knots. I needed help. Damn, life would be so much easier if you never needed anyone. Time and time again I had pretended I could handle everything singlehandedly and ended up with egg on my face. The sad thing is I believed that needing help was a sign of weakness.
Screw pride. Amoré Nights was too important.
I reached for my cell phone. Instinctively, I thought to call one or all of the girls, but I shook the thought away. I didn’t need a custody lawyer, part-time model, or fashion executive. They couldn’t help. I needed someone ruthless who could get down to James’ level.
My stomach turned at the only name left on my list. Calling him meant swallowing my pride. But this blackmailing piece of shit left me with no choice.
I pressed his contact. The phone rang in my ear, each tone louder than the last, and even though my hand trembled, I didn’t hang up. I’d eat crow and beg for help from him. I just hoped he answered.
Finally, the ringing stopped.
“Padre.”
“What’s wrong?”
The moment my father asked, the sobs burst free. I tried to explain, but the words caught in my throat, and I fell apart crying.
You Don’t Deserve Me
Padre worked quickly. James knew I had the heiress money but didn’t calculate the connections that came with it. He returned to the office today to submit his resignation, and the confident expression he wore days ago was gone.
“Are you sure you don’t want to demand I climb on top of the desk and hike my skirt up?”
He couldn’t even look at me now, his eyes darting everywhere but mine, like a coward searching for an exit. I leaned back, letting the silence stretch, savoring the delicious shift in power.
“I didn’t mean it. You took my words too seriously,” the coward muttered, eyes flickering to the door like a trapped rat.
All the swagger he had days ago was gone just like that. Now, it was my turn to laugh.
James finally looked at me. “Just call off Bruno and Mr. Ortega.”
I jumped to my feet, eyes wide and mouth slightly open. What I just heard hit me like a punch.
“Bruno?” My stomach dropped. “What does he have to do with this?”
How? When did he and Padre meet?
James stared at me briefly, then rushed from my office.
“Wait.”
He would not stop, so I called my father. When he did not pick up, I reached out to Madre.
“Is that matter fixed?” she asked, and that was enough to tell me Padre had filled her in. I braced myself to get scolded.
When seconds passed and nothing came, I answered, “Yes. The man resigned, but I worry he will blackmail me later.”
“Your padre would have demanded the evidence. Plus, I heard they recorded him confessing to blackmailing you. That’s a crime over there.”
I smiled. “It’s probably the case everywhere…Did Padre call Bruno? How did they even meet?”
“Back when you two were in college, Bruno came to Spain to visit his family and stopped by. I was shocked. You never shared anything about your life, so learning you had a boyfriend of three years surprised me. But once we got to know him, we approved and waited for news of the engagement.”
My breath caught. Bruno once sat in my parents’ living room, introduced himself, and nobody ever said a word to me? Why the big secret? Why was I always the last to know?
“I didn’t know you met.”
“Well, we did, and he got our hopes up. When no news came, your father phoned, and Bruno explained you two broke up. He took the blame, but we still were rooting for you two to get back together. I liked him, but I know my taste in men and yours aren’t the same.”
Silently, I listened to my mother. It seemed the week my Madre’s life fell apart, I was supposed to get engaged, but instead I asked him for space.
“Is that Alexandra?” my padre asked in the background.
“Yes.”
“Tell him thank you,” I whispered, the words raw.
Mother did as I asked, and I held my breath, waiting for his reply.
Padre didn’t disappoint; he answered as I’d grown to expect. “If she wants to thank me, tell her to marry Bruno, settle down, and make me some grandbabies.”
“Your father says you’re welcome.”
I laughed at Madre. She had to know I heard him, right?
My mother spoke again. “Please tell me you brought your scarf. They say New York is freezing again.”
“I’m inside, Madre. The radiator is working like always. No frostbite yet.”
“Wear a scarf when you go out. And eat something warm. I made caldo verde tonight and thought of you. Your father had two bowls. I know he misses how you used to sneak the last ladle.”
I smiled into the receiver. “He misses the ladle or he misses me?”
“Both. Mostly you.”
I almost laughed. Not too long ago, he banned me from his funeral, and now everyone had forgotten our cruel words. Typical in my family: hurtfully blunt one day, tender the next. Healthy? Probably not, but that’s the way we were.
“Listen, cariño, the Ferreras are hosting a celebration next month. Diego’s back from Madrid, and his mother asked if you might attend. Just a friendly hello.”
Here it was. The gentle nudge wrapped in velvet. “Madre, there’s no way. Amoré Nights just launched, and I barely sleep as it is.”
“I know, I know. Still, a dance never hurt anyone. Good families look after each other. You should have people who look after you.” She paused, letting the words settle. “I worry you stand alone too often.”
“I am fine, Ma.”
“I believe you. But being fine and being happy are different animals. Think about it, yes? You will call tomorrow?”
“I will call tomorrow.”
“Scarf,” she reminded, then kissed the phone and hung up.
Needing to process this information, I left the office. When I walked through the lobby and outside, I realized that even after promising, I had forgotten the scarf and even my damn coat upstairs. It was cold as fuck, but I figured my thoughts would keep me warm.
Bruno saved me. The same one who threw my life into chaos.
As I started to walk, my confusion grew. Was my father, all this time, talking about a specific man when he kept telling me to get married?
As I waited at the crosswalk for the light to change, something brushed my shoulder. Cloth, heavy and warm. I flinched, then looked up. Bruno stood close enough for me to count the dark lashes framing his eyes. He settled his coat over me with slow hands, careful, like the gesture might shatter if he rushed it.
The city’s noise dimmed while I concentrated on the heavy wool covering my upper body.
“You’ll freeze to death,” he murmured.
My pulse kicked hard, a drum in my throat. The coat smelled like cedar and a hint of his last espresso. I swallowed heat, felt it roll through me, fierce and sudden. We kept still in that pocket of day, breath clouding, eyes locked, neither moving away.
“I’m warm enough,” I managed.
“Keep it anyway,” he said, voice hoarse.
Bruno’s knuckles grazed my collar. Sparks. I drew a slow breath, and flashbacks from that drunken night in California chose that moment to come back in sharp detail. As one image after another of us in bed surfaced, I looked into his eyes. He gave a slight smile, the kind that carried a question neither of us wanted to ask. The air tightened between us until a laugh from down the block snapped the moment apart. He stepped back an inch, leaving a cool space where his warmth had been and a thought of what might have happened if he had stayed close.
“Where is your coat?”
“What are you doing here? I thought you went back to California.”
The light changed, so Bruno and I started walking.
He carried an uncertain look.
“I spoke to James and my father. I know you helped me.”
“Why didn’t you call me? My brother works for the FBI, and I was closer.” Bruno looked pained, and I felt guilty for not even considering it.
“I just kicked you out of my life again. What the hell would it look like asking for help?”
“I would’ve still helped you. I’d never say no.”
For a while, we walked side by side on the busy winter sidewalks of New York, our breath fogging in the air as we talked, oblivious to the city rushing past.
Curiosity got the best of me, and I stopped in the middle of the street. “How did you handle James?”
“I recorded him confessing to the blackmail. He’s a fucking idiot. Your father had his connections fire his mother and sister from their jobs. Your dad started working the minute you told him,” Bruno said.
I nodded slowly. That’s why I’d called him. Regardless of what I said or did, I was his flesh and blood.
“Mr. Ortega paid in full and moved to close on the building James rents. His lawyers rushed the paperwork, and the mortgage on the man’s family home is already in your father’s portfolio. Most people spend weeks waiting for that kind of approval, but he had it finalized in two days. That is the speed money and influence can buy.”
My eyes widened as I listened to him go on.
“And yesterday, the cybersecurity firm he hired finished erasing every file James kept on you. They charged a fortune—worth every cent,” Bruno finished.
“Wow, you two really worked well together,” I muttered.
He looked apprehensive. “I know you have a complicated relationship with him, but you’re still his daughter.”
I pressed my lips together. “The relationship between my father and me only rivals ours. Neither of you had to help, but you did.”
He shook his head like there was no need for me to say anything, but I wasn’t going to cop out or run. “Bruno, thank you. You really saved me from a hell I created myself.”
“And?”
I knew what he wanted. It’s what my parents, Demetria, and now I’m starting to think I should do deep down—to give us a second chance. “Nothing else has changed.”
“Yes, it has. Listen, I understand you are a numbers person, and statistically, men who cheat do it again, but the probability isn’t one hundred percent.”
I chuckled and continued walking, trying to gather my thoughts.
“I’m not leaving.”
“Really? Can you work at Greenslate all the way from New York?”
“I’ll resign if they won’t let me work remotely. If I’m going to chase you properly, I need to be in the state. Maybe even the same building. Are there any condos for sale in yours?”
Bruno’s words didn’t make me uneasy. They weren’t threats. Actually, my heart welcomed them, and I smiled.
Bruno caught my wrist, gentle and sure, and time froze around us. Cold air turned our breaths into small white ghosts that hovered and vanished. Traffic hissed somewhere behind us, a faint reminder that other lives kept moving.
He stepped closer. Snow dusted his dark hair, melting when it touched the heat of his skin. Our silence felt thick enough to touch, every unsaid word pressing in on my ribs. My pulse thumped hard at the base of my throat. Bruno watched my mouth like he’d already read my next thought, like he was waiting for permission I did not know how to give.
I parted my lips to say something easy, maybe a joke, maybe a warning. Nothing came out. The words tangled with the rush of want that slammed through my chest. He tilted his head, slow, deliberate. I felt the warmth of his breath before the touch of his lips. When they met mine, the world narrowed to that soft collision. Heat bloomed, shocking against the winter air. For half a second, I froze, every warning bell clanging. Then want won, louder than fear.
I kissed him back, fierce, almost greedy. His hand found my neck, thumb tracing my jaw in a way that made me shiver. The street, the snow, the weeks of arguing all faded away. There was only the glide of his mouth over mine, the quick hitch of his breath when I pressed closer, the sudden knowledge that I’d missed this more than I had ever let myself admit.
“I might be on my way to forgiving you, but I’ll never forget.”
He squeezed me tighter. “I don’t want to forget anything about us. Even the parts that hurt still made me grateful to have you in my life.”
I rolled my eyes. “Alright, take a break with all the flowery words. I’d take you back just to stop all the corny talk.”
Bruno laughed, wrapped an arm around my shoulder, and steered me into a nearby restaurant. “You never did like getting romanced in public.”
“Nobody talks like that except you. It’s so cheesy.”
By the look on his face, Bruno wasn’t buying my words. “So, what you’re saying is you’ve missed it.”
Lowering my head, I hid my reddish cheeks. The man might have been right, but he knew I would never admit it. As the restaurant door closed behind us, Bruno’s laughter followed my words. We sat at an empty table. He and I were back together, and anyone who knew us understood that meant we had entered our own little world.
When several seconds went by without anyone taking our order, I glanced at him, worried. He smiled, but he was obviously freezing. Since I had forgotten my coat and he had given me his, cold might have been an understatement. From my seat, I could see the contrast between his pale skin and flushed cheeks. He wasn’t blushing; he was just cold.
Oh hell no. I’d just got him back, he wasn’t leaving me so soon. Leaning to my right, I scanned the restaurant behind Bruno, desperately trying to spot a waitress. Not caring if she wasn’t ours, when I spotted a person wearing a shirt with a logo, I lifted my hand and waved it like my life depended on it.
Before Bruno turned his head to see who I was gesturing to, she smiled and made her way over. “Hi. Sorry, we’re a little understaffed today, and I didn’t see you guys come in.”
“It’s OK,” I said and lifted my hand when it looked like she would speak again. I had no interest in hearing about the specials or anything else. “Can you please get my boyfriend a hot cup of coffee? He’s freezing, and God knows if any part of him is frostbitten.”
Bruno’s eyes flew open, and I figured he thought the server would use her imagination about what was frozen.
The lady nodded and sprinted away. She didn’t go far. I watched her grab a pitcher and two mugs. Good. As soon as he got some warm liquid in his body, I’d feel more at ease.
“I’ll get you two some menus,” she said, then started to leave but hesitated. When she lowered the pot of coffee on the table, I nodded. “I’ll leave this here. Have as much as you want,” she said before hurrying off.
Impatiently, I watched Bruno across from me, but when he didn’t take a sip, I was puzzled.
“What? Why aren’t you drinking it?”
He smiled and finally, slowly lifted the cup, but when the ceramic mug touched his lips, he froze. Maybe I was mistaken and he was fine, thanks to the thermal underwear under his clothes.
“So I’m your boyfriend again?”
My eyebrows shot up and my mouth fell open as the words tumbled out. “What? Did I say that? When?”
Warmth hit my cheeks when I replayed my words, but I raised my chin right away. There was nothing to be ashamed of. “Well, you begged hard enough, and here we are again.”
“It’s just been a while since I heard you call me that.”
I poured myself a cup while admitting, “Since you, I haven’t used that word for anyone.”
Bruno took a gulp of his coffee and winked. “That’s nice of you to share.”
Share?
“Long as I’m not sharing YOU again, I’m not stingy,” I mumbled. Then, as my own cheeks heated up again, I realized what pleased Bruno earlier. My slip made it clear I cared more than I admitted. It wasn’t just one-sided, as I’d been pretending all along.
“Now, what can I get you two to eat?” the server returned to ask. Bruno and I stared at each other.
“My girlfriend will order. She knows what I like.”
My jaw gave a quick, unapproved twitch. Bruno was right, I did know.
Words Fail
Laughter echoed through the condo while my friends and I spoke over each other and shared the remaining bottle of wine. The dining table was a mess of empty plates and glasses. I turned my head and noticed dessert was next to be served.
“So, he’s the new chef?” Olivia asked, as Bruno added a few berries to the plates.
Lowering my head, I whispered, “Dominic had to go.”
Mei nodded her head in agreement, and Olivia shrugged.
Demetria ignored my words and turned to Bruno. “Dinner was amazing.”
“It was good, but the steak was dry,” Olivia said, her face twisting.
“Lies, his meat is perfect,” I added.
Laughter broke out among my friends.
“She’s already hypnotized by his dick,” Mei added, and my eyes widened. Bruno wore a proud expression as he placed the plates before us.
Demetria gave him a sympathetic look. “You’re way better than the last chef with desserts. This cake is delicious, no contest.”
Olivia looked ready to argue, but I pointed the teeth of my fork in her direction. “Don’t say anything.”
Mei smiled. Eventually, we all wore a similar expression.
“So, when is the wedding?” Demetria asked.
I closed my eyes and took a breath; one minute I was prepared to spend eternity with just these bitches, and now, I wished they’d get lost.
“Soon as I can convince her, and in the meantime I’m working on getting my own key,” Bruno yelled from his place back in the kitchen.
The fork stopped halfway to my mouth. A key? That was nothing. I had already handed him my heart again.
Cutting into my thoughts, Mei said, “Bake me a cake and I will help convince her.”
All four of us leaned in, our heads nearly touching as laughter grew.
“Nope. I’m not sharing my desserts with anyone.”
His words made me nod, and the wine glass hovered over my lips. “Wow. You learned the most important lesson after college. Everything you’ve got belongs to me.”
Bruno saluted, and I beamed.
Demetria leaned close. “You look different tonight. Happier.” She squeezed my arm, then stood before I could reply.
We slipped into the slow rhythm of good-nights, trading hugs and promises to text, the sort of plans most people never followed through on, though we usually did. My friends disappeared in the elevator.
Once the door shut, I realized nobody, not even Olivia, questioned why I changed my mind or whether they should still commit me to a mental institution or if I was sure. Maybe they noticed how happy I looked and chose to hold off on the interrogation until the next private gathering. Either way, I loved them even more for making me not have to explain my about-face tonight.
When I returned to the kitchen area, Bruno was gone. I headed for the living room, where the lights were low and flames flickered in the fireplace. And there he was, stretched out on the couch, a blanket lifted, like he’d been saving a spot just for me.
Bruno filled a second wine glass as he spoke. “I’d say your little dinner was a success.”
I smiled and slid into the space beside him. “It was. Olivia might grill the hell out of me eventually…”
“All night she watched me. I was scared she’d run into the kitchen, grab a knife, and do what she threatened in college. Cut my dick off,” he said, refilling his glass.
Giggling, I leaned into him. The blanket was already warm from his body heat, and for some unexplained reason I wanted to be engulfed in flames. Outside, the city was cold. Snowflakes floated down in thick clusters, gathering along the higher floors of the surrounding buildings. Right here next to Bruno was the warmest place to be.
He pressed a kiss onto my temple. “You looked happier than I’d seen you in a long while tonight.”
“I was,” I said. And I meant it. Not just because of the girls, Amoré Nights’ success, the food, or even the wine. But this. Right here. After that we simply sat there, legs intertwined under the blanket, glasses lifted, the city looking in at us through the large windows. And for once, I didn’t feel like I had to fill the silence. It already had everything I needed.
I placed a kiss on his cheek, and Bruno took the glass from my hand and set it on the table beside his. His fingers brushed my jaw, warm and deliberate, his thumb tracing the edge of my bottom lip. He leaned in and kissed me, starting slow, his mouth gentle and exploring. I went still for a heartbeat as the kiss deepened and his hand drew me closer.
I shifted onto his lap, my knees straddling his thighs. The blanket slipped off my shoulders and pooled behind me. The heat of the fire flickered along my skin, but it was nothing compared to the warmth building between us. Bruno’s hands moved over me, possessive, slipping under the hem of my dress. I felt the urgency in his touch, the way he pulled me tighter. His mouth then claimed mine like he couldn’t get close enough.
My dress crept higher as Bruno explored every inch of my legs, my waist, my back. He pressed his mouth to my neck, wet and open, lips dragging slowly over the curve of my throat. I tilted my head, giving him more, feeling the scrape of his teeth just below my collarbone.
“That feels so good,” I purred.
My nails dug into his shoulders, my breath coming faster, body arching against his. I could feel his heartbeat under my palm, steady but quick, matching my own. His mouth found mine again, rougher now, more demanding, and I gave in completely. Bruno’s hands gripped my hips as I moved against him, our bodies falling into a rhythm that made the rest of the world dissolve. He pulled back just enough to look at me, his thumb brushing over my cheek.
“Tonight is all about you.”
The words cracked something open in me. I nodded, unable to find the voice to answer. Just a nod—quiet, desperate. He stood, lifting me effortlessly in his arms, my legs wrapped around him. He carried me toward the bedroom, past the city lights and the snow and the fireplace that still burned behind us. Every step felt deliberate, like he wasn’t rushing it, like he wanted me to feel every second. He laid me down slowly, his body following mine. Eagerly, I reached for his pants, but Bruno caught my wrists before gently pinning them above my head.
“Not tonight,” he said, voice low. “You don’t have to do anything for me. Just feel.”
I let out a shaky breath. My body trembled with the effort of not controlling, not leading, not holding everything together. I let him undress me slowly, his mouth following every exposed line of skin. The way he looked at me, hungry but reverent, made something tighten in my chest.
The fire burned low. Snow tapped the window like a polite guest who didn’t demand to be invited in. The wool blanket scratched the back of my knees and smelled faintly of cedar. Bruno’s palm rested on my hip, warm, steady, asking nothing. Waiting.
“Should we make things official?” he asked. There was no swagger in it. No pressure. It landed like a soft place to lie down.
I nodded. My throat felt tight and strangely clear at the same time. “Yes.”
He moved in that slow way of his, like he was translating a language he did not want to get wrong. Lips to my temple. My cheek. The corner of my mouth. Each touch a question. I answered by leaning, by opening, by not running. Heat rose under my skin. Not the kind that panics. The kind that softens. My hands found his shoulders and then his shirt buttons, small careful clicks that felt louder than the wind outside.
He set the pace. And I was relieved and happy to relinquish control. The fire popped. We both looked, a reflex. Then we smiled, the same crooked curve. I pulled his shirt free and pressed my palms to his chest. Hair rough under skin, heartbeat even. This was what safe sounded like: a steady tempo, not speeding up the second I admitted I was afraid.
“There’s no going back now,” he said.
I could have said the same to him. Instead, I tugged him closer, legs shifting under the blanket. His mouth found mine fully now, no questions left, and I let my body answer what my mouth could not. The kiss turned deeper.
Clothes went in small piles. Socks off last, laughter at the awkwardness of it, the way adults can laugh in the middle of the most serious things. His hands at my waist. The blanket pulled higher. My skin against his. Warmth, weight, relief, the kind that makes you realize how cold you had been. I let my eyes close. Let the world narrow to scent and heat and the scrape of wool.
He kissed the hollow of my throat, and my breath caught, but not the way it used to, not with dread. My mind tried to rise, to narrate, to warn, and I told it to rest. Just for tonight. Just long enough to see what happened when I stopped standing guard.
“Look at me,” he said.
I did. His eyes were not a demand. They were a place. I went there. Something unclenched. My hands moved on their own and found what they wanted. He groaned, quiet, as if he was trying not to break whatever spell we had managed to cast. I didn’t want careful anymore. Not all careful. I wanted something honest.
“Please,” I pleaded, and he gave me more, but still slow, still taking his time.
Bruno moved first. The blanket slid. The cold air bit my shoulder and then warmed again under his mouth. His fingers laced with mine, anchored. We found a rhythm that was not smooth at first, the way forgiveness never is. It stuttered. It learned. It settled.
When the orgasm came, it wasn’t fireworks. It was a deep thaw, a river under ice cracking open, water pushing through the narrowest places. I heard myself say his name like I hadn’t said it in a year, not as a weapon, not as a plea, just as a truth. He held me through it. He didn’t let go until I did.
After, the room sounded busy. The snow tapped again. The fire sighed. My heartbeat slowed against his chest. He brushed a strand of hair from my mouth and looked like he was about to speak. I shook my head. Not yet. Words could wait. Trust was busy knitting itself together in the quiet.
We lay there while the last log settled into coals. The blanket itched. My leg was falling asleep. It felt real. He kissed my knuckles. I let myself believe, for one breath, that this would not disappear in the morning.
One breath turned into two. Then three. Outside, New York kept snowing. Inside, I let the weight of his arm stay where it was. I let the silence mean what it meant. I closed my eyes and did not reach for my armor. Not tonight.
Bruno slept beside me, his arm stretched over the pillow we shared. The room stayed dim, lit only by a thin yellow line of city light seeping through the curtains. His uneven breathing might have once annoyed me, but now each one curled warm in my chest. I lay on my side, taking him in. Bruno’s lashes rested lightly against his skin, the curve of his mouth softer in sleep, free of the teasing grin that could still spark a fight if I let it.
A tiny scar near his temple caught the light, the one Olivia gave him after our messy breakup in college. Earlier, I had touched my lips to it, easing the old history still attached to that mark.
I used to run after nights like this, slipping out before daylight with my shoes in hand, certain intimacy was a trap. With Bruno, that old instinct did not surface. His suitcase sat open in the corner, half unpacked, looking less like a quick visit and more like a welcomed sign he planned to stay.
I traced the rise and fall of his chest with my eyes, breathed in cedar, wine, and the faint smoke of the fireplace that hadn’t quite gone out downstairs.
Never in a million years did I think we would end up back here again, cuddling with me memorizing his face. Either way, for the first time in a long while, I let myself picture a future with Bruno. Not certain or risk free, but worth trying for.
“You know I love you, don’t you?” I said, the words slipping out before I could second-guess them.
To my surprise, he slowly opened his eyes.
“I never doubted you loved me. Only worried you’d stubbornly deny it for the rest of both our lives.”
“I thought you were sleeping.”
“How can anyone sleep with a beautiful woman like you lying next to them? It’s a good thing I was awake, because I doubt you’d confess your love anytime soon.”
I leaned over and laid my head on his chest. “I hate how well you know me.”
“You don’t hate anything about me,” Bruno said, then gently kissed my forehead.
Damn, he was right about that too.
When He Loved Me
Nestled in the Catskill Mountains of New York was a place the girls and I liked to escape to when the city overwhelmed us. So, when Bruno mentioned taking a quick weekend trip, Stone Peak Lodge was my recommendation. The lodge offered cabins in the woods, an attached restaurant, and a view of snow-covered mountains perfect for skiing. After a quick check with the weatherman, I thought nothing could go wrong, but as we drove up the mountain in the rain, I sighed. The words were on the tip of my tongue, but I wouldn’t say them. There was no fucking snow, and now the weather app promised nothing but rain for days. Why were the majority of weather broadcasters men? Maybe lying came standard with the job description.
“Who cares. There’s plenty of other things we can do. I didn’t plan to leave the room anyway,” Bruno said.
He was never the sort to get angry, so I wasn’t surprised he took the ruined weekend so well. However, when he wrapped an arm around me and we entered the wooden doors of the lodge, my hatred for weathermen seemed unimportant.
There in Bruno’s arms I could admit that not all men were unreliable; yes, they weren’t perfect, but neither was I.
“You’re right. We came to rekindle our relationship. We don’t need snow. We’re so hot, we’d probably melt it.”
Bruno agreed, with a pat on my ass, and when we finally walked into our room and saw the king-size bed, we wasted no time messing it up.
Afterward, it felt like all the energy had drained out of me, partly from Bruno and also because I’d skipped lunch.
Sex was one thing, but hunger made my stomach do bigger flips. During the drive I planned to eat as soon as we arrived, but after that pat on my ass, the hunger faded. Now, it was back with a vengeance.
I stood quietly and headed over to the kitchen. When we booked the room, we asked the lodge to have it stocked with bread, eggs, milk, and a few other basics. I spied the box of pancake mix, and the idea of making Bruno a homemade meal tickled me. I never wasted time in a kitchen before, but this time around with him I wanted to try.
Yes, pancakes weren’t steak or lamb chops, but it was a start.
Minutes later he moved toward me. I glanced up and back at the bowl, where the batter looked lumpier than it should be. Bruno laughed when he reached my side and leaned against the counter.
“Are you laughing at me? When I’m trying to be nice and feed you?”
Crossing his arms, he squinted, then spoke. “You sure you’re not still angry and trying to kill me again?”
After rolling my eyes, I tried to defend myself. “I probably just put too much pancake mix in the bowl. It was a simple mistake.”
Bruno came closer. When he peered into the bowl with an expression of disinterest, I gave up. “Let’s just order room service. It’s too late in the day for pancakes anyway.”
“You have many skills. Especially over there,” he pointed to the bed, “but the kitchen isn’t your strong point.”
Before I had a chance to defend myself, he dipped a finger into the batter and tapped it on the tip of my nose. Without a moment’s hesitation, I smeared a streak across his cheek.
Bruno blinked, caught off guard for a moment, then chuckled and moved in to close the last bit of distance between us. Our hips bumped as we struggled for control of the bowl. Laughing, we clumsily knocked it to the ground, but the mess wasn’t important. Bruno reached out and grabbed my waist, and I didn’t pull away. There was something in the way he looked at me then, eyes soft and his mouth curved in that relaxed smile of his, that made every simple act, even ruining our meal, feel like something more. Something easy. Something like love.
We left the mess in the kitchen and cleaned ourselves up. Then we headed downstairs to grab a bite at Avalanche, the restaurant attached to Stone Peak. Across from Bruno, I sat eating a delicious burger when he stared at me.
“What? Do I have ketchup on my face?”
“If you did, it wouldn’t matter.”
I frowned. What did that mean? Did I? What was he looking at? I lifted my hand and wiped it just in case but felt nothing.
“You’re beautiful, Alex.”
I looked down at my plate, cheeks warming as his words sank in, and though I tried to hide my smile behind my wine glass, I knew he saw it.
Jesus, he didn’t make it easy, but I tried to deflect. “You’re not so bad looking yourself.”
Bruno chuckled. I meant it, even with the large glass windows that gave me a great view of the mountains, he was still the best-looking thing in the restaurant.
“When we finish eating, why don’t we beautiful people go enjoy a game of pool?” Bruno said.
We played pool constantly in college. It had been a year since our last game together, yet I was certain we would fall back into rhythm as easily as we did with everything else.
“You’re on.”
The score was closer than expected.
“I see you’ve been practicing,” I said, curious for an explanation.
As he rubbed chalk on his cue, Bruno merely winked and leaned over the pool table with annoying confidence, one hand steady, the other guiding the cue like he had all day to play. I watched the ball sink into the pocket with a clean, smug click. I rolled my eyes; this wasn’t going to be a cakewalk after all. Bruno used to miss half his shots. Had he been practicing the whole time we were apart?
“Your turn.”
“I know it’s my turn,” I snapped and grabbed my cue.
He might’ve improved, but I didn’t get worse, so victory could still be mine. Wasting no time, I knocked two balls into a pocket.
“Oh. You still have that trick shot,” Bruno said, with an unimpressed expression.
“Don’t pretend you aren’t amazed.”
“I’m always amazed by your skills.”
His words had a sensual tone, but I ignored them. I refused to be distracted.
For a while we went back and forth; it was close, but the next shot could help me win, then we could check out the lodge’s other amenities.
“Let’s wrap this up,” I said, then leaned over the pool table, hips steady and cue in hand, ready to sink the shot.
“Alex, I love you.”
Yanking my head up, I stared at him. This wasn’t something I didn’t know, but getting used to the words on Bruno’s lips would take me a while. My heart pounded so hard I could barely breathe, and as the tears welled up, all I could think was that something in me had been waiting for those words all along.
After losing to Bruno at pool, I hung my head in shame and suggested we grab some wine and appetizers, while sitting near the fireplace. The rain had taken a break, and he liked my suggestion.
“Remember, you said loser buys,” Bruno reminded me, and I clenched my fist.
“It was close. You only won because you chose to tell me you loved me while I was shooting,” I muttered. It wasn’t fair, and my chest was still buzzing from the words.
Bruno chuckled. “I don’t see why. It wasn’t a secret. I’ve never pretended to stop loving you.”
He was right, like always, and it annoyed me, just like his victorious smile did, especially when I was the one who taught his ass to play pool back in college. “I want a rematch.”
Bruno laughed, low and playful, and I couldn’t help but roll my eyes even as a smile tugged at my lips.
After ordering wine and appetizers, I joined him by the fire. We sat on an oversized chair, watching the flames.
Our last morning at Stone Peak, I stood barefoot by the sliding door, tempted by the balcony. It was snowing.
Now.
Hours before we were about to check out.
Wearing Bruno’s oversized shirt, I held my warm coffee mug. It was beautiful outside, and my resolve was breaking.
“Maybe we should stay an extra day.”
Behind me Bruno stopped typing on his laptop. I turned to see what he thought about my suggestion.
“Why, isn’t it snowing in the city too?”
“I know, but we missed out, and I wanted us to experience it all together.”
“Baby, we can come back next weekend. We have forever. Plus, don’t you have breakfast with your girls tomorrow morning?”
Shit! I forgot. Already I could hear the teasing from those three bitches. “So you get a man and forget your girlfriends.”
It wasn’t worth it. Plus, Bruno was right, the lodge was a few hours away from the city. We’d be back to cross the mountain off my list. From his place on the couch, Bruno watched me like I was something rare, but he didn’t say anything, just smiled a soft and knowing smile. And in that quiet, I knew I’d made the right decision to let him back in my life.
I’d never been happier.
An hour later, we started the two-hour drive home. Bruno drove with one hand on the wheel and the other wrapped around mine, our fingers laced together as I watched the snow-covered trees outside my window.
Interrupting our moment, my phone rang. Annoyed, I reached for it and sighed. When I spotted Madre’s name on the screen, I looked at Bruno, who gestured with his head that I answer, so I did.
“Hi.”
“Are you busy? Is this a bad time?” she asked.
Wow. Never before had my mother asked. Normally, she waited for me to answer and started to ramble. Turning to Bruno, who lifted my hand to his lips, I took a deep breath and answered truthfully, “No. I can talk. Is everything OK?”
“Yes. Just checking in on you.”
I heard a loneliness in my mother’s voice for the first time. I felt like I was her only friend. Whether it was healthy or not, the reason she called me countless times was because she missed me, her confidant, the person she cried to.
“Padre giving you trouble?”
Mother giggled. “No. The Good Lord has fixed him.”
“Huh? How?”
I could hear the glee in her voice when she answered. “Tomás had a checkup after complaining about chest pain.”
“What? Is he OK?” I was eager to know; just then the idea there could actually be a funeral and he wouldn’t want me to attend troubled me.
Bruno tightened his hand on mine. “Is something wrong?”
I looked at him but had no answers to give.
“Calm down, he’s fine. What I’m trying to explain is, because of the chest pain, the doctors put him on nitroglycerin, and more tests discovered Tomás has low blood pressure. That, with the medication he already takes for his prostate issue, means his beloved Viagra is off limits.”
After her words sank in that Padre would be just fine, I chuckled. “So, you’re celebrating that medical intervention will make him keep his promise of being faithful?”
“The Lord works in mysterious ways.”
I sighed. Father was basically neutered, and leave it to Mother to turn nitroglycerin into a divine gift. My crazy family deserved their own reality show.
“Madre, you think God gave Padre chest pains and a prostate issue all to keep your marriage together?”
“What?” Bruno said beside me, but I shook my head.
“I’ll tell you later.”
“Who is that?” Mother asked, and briefly I thought of doing what I’ve always done, telling her nothing, but the words were out before I knew it.
“Bruno. We’re heading home.”
Silence.
“God is working for you too.”
God? I wasn’t even a believer, but my mother ignored me telling her I was an atheist. That woman had a skill at forgetting things that made her uncomfortable.
“Tell Bruno I said hi, and maybe you guys can come visit for Viernes Santo (Good Friday).”
Me in church next to Padre probably praying for his beloved Viagra. No thanks. But then I remembered Bruno was a fairly religious man, and he often visited his family back home.
“I’ll ask him and let you know.”
“He won’t say no. Bruno is a good man…nothing like your father…he’s the sort I naively wish every day Tomás could be.”
My throat tightened as I processed her words, all of them hitting deeper than I expected, and for a moment, I couldn’t speak at all. Then, the line went silent, and I realized Madre hung up, leaving me alone with everything she’d just made me feel.
“Are you OK?” Bruno asked next to me when his eyes should be on the road ahead.
Quickly, I assured him so he could look ahead. “Never better.”
Behind Closed Doors
When we finally arrived home, I was determined. Since Bruno returned to my life, it felt like all I had done was take. I wanted to do something for him, especially after the pancake disaster at the lodge. The groceries I had ordered on the drive were already delivered, so I started working. Bruno got into the shower, and I set to work on paella. After all our years together, he still doubted I could cook, though the real issue was never ability, only interest. I planned to show him.
A sharp, demanding sound disturbed my movements. I squinted as I crossed the room to the intercom on the far wall and picked up the call. “Hey, Jarvis.”
“Mei is here. Should I send her up?”
Mei? She was never a pop-up sort of friend, so panic filled me. “Yes, send her up. Thanks.”
After lowering the fire under the pot, I grabbed two wine glasses. Whatever she needed to share might need either celebrating or cheering up, and for both occasions, wine would do. As soon as the doorbell rang, I stepped out of the kitchen. One look at Mei’s face when I opened the door told me we would not be celebrating.
“What’s wrong?”
Instead of answering, she walked past me into the condo. “Is Bruno here?”
The way she looked around my place I knew she wanted privacy. “He’s taking a shower, but I can get rid of him.”
“No. That’s OK. I just need to talk.”
I noticed her hand shaking. “Mei, what’s wrong? Tell me.”
Either she didn’t hear or needed more time to say the words, but Mei just kept walking ahead until she stopped, mid-stride, in front of the wine and two glasses I set out. Her frown confused me.
“Figured that might come in handy,” I said and lowered myself onto the couch, patting beside me.
Mei didn’t come over.
“You’ll have to drink it all by yourself.”
Something was off. However, I felt I shouldn’t push her and kept my mouth closed, giving her the chance to say whatever she came to say.
Unsure what to do next, I filled my glass. As soon as the cold rim touched my lips, Mei spoke. “I’m pregnant.”
Silence.
We stared at each other, and her eyes filled with fear while my whole face froze in shock.
Mei finally lowered herself beside me. “Yes, you heard correctly. Yes, I’m sure. I’m pregnant.”
Her words weren’t cheerful; in fact, the quiver of her lips told me she was about to cry. I wrapped an arm around my friend. For a few seconds, I wasn’t sure what to say. Mei was the most ambitious person in our group. She didn’t just plan to be a doctor, she had big dreams, and never once did she say that one of them was having a child.
“I can’t believe I got myself into this situation. I’m too smart to get myself get knocked up.”
“Breathe,” I said, then slowly inhaled through my nose, held it for a few seconds, then let it out through my mouth, hoping she’d follow my lead.
When Mei rolled her eyes, I took a different approach. “You have options.”
She shook her head. “I can’t do that.”
In truth I knew she’d probably say that, but I just wanted her to feel less trapped. “Mei, you already have an undergraduate degree. You can do this.”
My best friend shot me a look like I’d lost my mind, then jumped to her feet. “Alex. I’m pregnant, and the man is married. I’m here to become a doctor and make a better life for my parents back home in China. All of that is now ruined.”
“Whoa, whoa. Calm down,” I said and pulled her back down. “You don’t have to give up on your dream because of a baby.”
“Be serious, how am I supposed to be a full-time student and a mother?”
Realizing I needed a moment to collect my thoughts before I argued some sense into Mei, I took a sip.
Then I had it. “You always told me your parents would live with you once you got married and started a family, which I’d kill myself before allowing mine to do, but couldn’t they come and do that now?”
Shit! The tears rolling down Mei’s face told me that suggestion was terrible.
“My parents don’t even think I’ve ever had a boyfriend, much less.”
I stared at her with mouth hanging open. “Are you kidding me. They are floating around China thinking you are a virgin at your age?”
“They’re old-fashioned,” Mei said in a dejected voice, then mumbled, “How do I tell Jeffrey this?”
“Easy. Hey, Jeffrey, you’re going to be a father.”
The corner of her mouth twisted into a smile. “Maybe I’ll tell my parents he died; they’d forgive me for a dead fiancé more than accepting I’ve been fucking the parts of New York you left uncharted.”
“Hey,” I said, carrying a wounded expression, “at least I took precautions.”
Mei’s eyes widened. “Wait, Jeffrey and I used protection…this might not even be his baby.” Her voice cracked on the last word.
“Shit, will we need to do a paternity test? I knew fashion models were in high demand…”
When Mei’s shoulders slouched and she lowered her head into her hand, I shut the hell up.
“It’s even worse than I realized.”
“Why?”
She sighed. “I got myself knocked up by a homeless man with no ambition, one who wouldn’t take a stable job if his life were on the line.”
Damn, we say we are best girlfriends, but even we have our secrets from one another. I had lost track of how many times Mei promised she would never deal with Throne again, and her refusal to meet my eyes told me her underwear model fuck buddy was the father of the baby she carried. “We need reinforcements. Let’s call Olivia and Demetria.”
Mei shook her head, and I was shocked she’d confided in me and not the others. A mini smile formed on my face.
“They’re already on the way. You’re just the one among the group who couldn’t judge me, so I started with you first.”
I stood and crossed my arms tightly, stung by her words. She wasn’t wrong, I had no business throwing stones from my glass house. Screw my hurt feelings. I pushed them down deep where I kept all the other things I didn’t have time to feel. Mei needed me now. “Alright, when those other two bitches come, we’ll make a plan.”
I talked with Mei for quite a while. When Bruno came out of the shower, he did not waste any time. He simply announced he was stepping out and kissed me on the cheek. He could probably feel the tension. Mei sat curled on the couch, hands pressed to her stomach like it hurt. I kept trying to comfort her, but I could tell I wasn’t doing the best job, and I was running out of things to say: reasons this would be OK, and that everything could still all work out like she wanted.
A sharp buzz from the intercom cut through the silence.
That must be Demetria and Olivia.
Mei looked at me. I looked at her. Neither of us moved. Our eyes traveled to the kitchen at the same time. The ringing kept going.
“Demetria will judge me for sleeping around.”
“That’s not new; she always does that,” I said playfully as I headed to the intercom.
“Olivia will probably say I’m stupid for sleeping with Throne.”
“She’s been telling me that I was stupid since freshman year, that’s not new either.”
Behind me I heard Mei chuckle.
“The way you tell it, nothing has changed.”

